What constitutes cheating?  Going out with a friend of the opposite sex? Having sex? Holding hands? Going to a strip club and getting a lap dance? Personally I think it's subjective. Your beliefs define what cheating is. For me, cheating is:

Oral Sex
Sex
Hand Jobs
Making Out
(Pretty much anything of a severe sexual nature)

I don't consider going to a strip club cheating nor do I consider getting a lap dance cheating. Many people might. I think Ryan does. But you know what? It's just good clean fun...Well good fun...I'm not sure about the clean part. I guess I look at it like this...Would I feel guilty if I was doing the same thing?

You see Ryan went to a strip club last night with a friend. Said friend then paid for Ryan to have a lap dance. Now I was disappointed in Ryan but not for the reason people would think. I'm disappointed for 2 reasons. He didn't just enjoy himself and then tell me today. And he didn't wait so I could go too. ;) I could go to a strip club and not feel guilty. I might regret not taking Ryan with me but I wouldn't feel guilty because I went to a strip club or got a lap dance. It doesn't make me a bad person. It just means that I have a different standard than you do.

Other things:

Yesterday Ryan and I went to the reveal of the Extreme Makeover: Home Edition house. It was AWESOME! There were like at least 6,000 people there and we were all smooshed in but I got to spend the day with my baby and got to see Ty Pennington and Paul. It was amazing. He really isn't THAT loud in person by the way. Unfortunately, I got a really bad sunburn on my left arm, my back/neck, my face, and my right shoulder. I held and teased Ryan for most of the day. Afterwards we went to Lake Le-Aqua-Na because he's never been there before. I was so shocked. If you live in the north west you so have to go sometime. It's a beautiful place. So peaceful.

Some people have been asking me lately, why Ryan? They only see his faults and it's really pissing me off so I thought I would officially clear up, why Ryan. He calls me every night to say good night. He calls me just to tell me he loves me. He's not afraid to hold my hand in public and give me a kiss whenever I need it. He makes me laugh and smile. He holds me and kisses me all over. He listens and helps me through the pain. He's never been mean to me and he promises me he never will. He is my Prince Charming. My Cory. My Jasper. My yang. My everything. Got a problem with that? I don't need you in my life like I need him. I couldn't be any happier than I am when I'm in his arms. I love you doesn't even cover everything I feel for him. That's why Ryan.

Weapon of choice? The cheese grater!

I love my crazy, goofy, sometimes stupid, but oh so amazing boyfriend.