Anger

I hate my camera batteries. They're rechargeable but they don't hold their charge. It really pisses me off. Grrr. FUCK MY LIFE!

A Day To Remember

Fuzz went to an A Day To Remember show at Club Hollywood in Augusta, GA. I have been listening to ADTR more lately. I must admit, I'm a little jealous he got to go but then again, he lives close enough to go. I don't. Y'all need to remember, I'm in IL. My favorite song is definitely Have Faith In Me.

Have faith in me
Cause there are things that I've seen I don't believe
So cling to what you know and never let go
You should know things aren't always what they seem

I said I'd never let you go, and I never did
I said I'd never let you fall and I always meant it
If you didn't have this chance then I never did
You'll always find me right there, again

I'm going crazy
Cause there are things in the streets I don't believe
So we'll pretend it's alright (pretend it's alright)
and stay in for the night
Oh what a world
I'll keep you safe here with me (with me)

I said I'd never let you go, and I never did
I said I'd never let you fall and I always meant it
If you didn't have this chance then I never did
You'll always find me right there, again

I said I'd never let you go, and I never did
I said I'd never let you fall and I always meant it
If you didn't have this chance then I never did
You'll always find me right there, again

They've got me on the outside, looking in
But I can't see at all
With the weight of the world on my shoulders,
They just wanna see me fall

They've got me on the outside, looking in
But I can't see at all
With the weight of the world on my shoulders,
They just wanna see me fall

Have faith in me

I said I'd never let you go, and I never did
I said I'd never let you fall and I always meant it
If you didn't have this chance then I never did
You'll always find me right there, again

I said I'd never let you go, and I never did (Go, Did)
I said I'd never let you fall and I always meant it (Fall, Meant It)
If you didn't have this chance then I never did
You'll always find me right there, again

I said I'd never let you go, and I never did
I said I'd never let you go, and I never did
I said I'd never let you go, and I never did
I said I'd never let you go, and I never did

Pon & Zi

1991 Baby

You're a 90s kid if...

You remember watching:

-Kenan and Kel (Oh my god! Orange Soda! I was addicted to that shit for years because of this show!)

-Doug (Hehe! It was so funny.)

-Ren & Stimpy (Didn't really like it. Not my style of humor.)

-Pinky and the Brain (What are we going to do tonight Brain? - The same thing we do every night Pinky...try and take over the world! ---Wicked show!---)

-AAAAAAAH Real Monsters! (So wicked awesome!)

-Rockos Modern Life (Rockos best friend was the weirdest and most awesomeest dude ever!)

-Animaniacs (Never watched.)

-Gargoyles (Skipped this too.)

-Tom and Jerry [when they didnt talk] (Funny but quiet...)

-Hey Arnold (Oh god, that one chick in the pink was a bitch, but I loved her!)

-Out of the Box (This was a great show and gave me a lot of ideas.)

-Bear in the Big Blue House (Hehe...Bear...Moon...)

Youve ever ended a sentence with the word PSYCHE! (Never...PSYCHE!)

You just cant resist finishing this . . . In west Philadelphia born and raised... (On a playground where he spent most of his days.....)

You remember:

-Step by Step (Not...)

-Family Matters (My...)

-Dinosaurs (Style.......)

-Boy Meets World (Everything I learned in life, I learned from Mr. Feeny!)

You remember when it was actually worth getting up early on a Saturday to watch cartoons. (Yes, I really do...Oh the wonderful days...)

When everything was settled by:

-rock paper scissors or (Rock beats all bitch!)

-bubble gum bubble gum in a dish or (How many wishes do you wish?)

-miss mary mack (Miss Mary What The Fuckkk)

When kick ball was something you did everyday!! (When I lived in Savanna in the trailer park, all us kids would gather after dinner and play. I loved it. We would also have a kicking contest.)

You used to listen to the radio all day long just to record your FAVORITE song of ALL time on a tape. (I never did this but I did listen to the radio all day.)

You remember when Super Nintendos and Sega Genisis became popular. (Of course I do. And I was promptly addicted.)

You always wanted to send in a tape to Americas Funniest Home Videos . . . but never taped anything funny. (Very true.)

You remember watching:

-The Magic School Bus (I learned so much from this show, like all about science.)

-Wishbone (Hehe awesome show about reading!)

-Reading Rainbow (Didn't really watch it much but knew of it.)

-Ghostwriter on PBS (I LOVE THIS SHOW! I wish I could find re-runs.)

You remember when Yo-Yos were cool. (I sucked with Yo-Yos...Still do.)

And you played with Silly Puddy and Sticky Tac that you stole from the teachers walls. (Mwahahhaha. I had a small collection of Sticky Tac...My teachers never had enough because of kids like me...)

You remember those Wheres Waldo books. (Hide and seek state champion for the win!)

Those awsome buzz lightyear shoes that light up. (I'm...a...GIRL!)

You remember eating Warheads and Splashers Gum (Queen of the Warheads. I loved sour.)

You remember watching:

-The 1st Batman (Skipped it...Well until I was like 16.)

-Aladdin (I wanted to be Princess Jasmine.)

-Ninja Turtles (Did you know they were all named after famous artists?)

-Ghost Busters (Who you gonna call? GHOSTBUSTERS!)

You remember Ring Pops!!! (I remember when this little boy proposed to me with a ring pop. So sweet.)

If you remember when every thing was da BOMB! (Damn dawg, thats da bomb!)

You remember boom boxes vs. cd players (I was team CD Player but boom boxes make me nastalgic.)

You played and/or collected Pogs (Of course I did.)

You had at least one Tamagotchi, GigaPet, or Nano and brought it everywhere u went (I collected Tamagotchis and Giga Pets. They all died eventually.)

You watched the original cartoons of

-Rugrats (Chuckie! I wanted to marry him when I was like 3.)

-Wild Thornberrys (First love of animals.)

-Power Rangers (Fuck you all...I only watched because Brain made me...)

-Rocket Power. (Auto, Reggie, and the gang rocked.)

All your school supplies were Lisa Frank brand (I wasn't into Lisa Frank.)

If you collected those:

-Beanie Babies (A few here and there but nothing huge.)

-Yu Gi Oh and Pokemon cards (Yu Gi Oh cards and Pokemon cards were banned from my school...It seriously got that bad.)

-Coins with the states on them (Hell yeah!)

-Carebears (Don't judge me...I was like 6...)

-Silver dollars, which were cool to have (Ahh...I spent the money before I could save it.)

-Everyone watched the WB (I did. And I loved it.)

If you even know what an original walkman is...(Sure I do. Had one too.)

You know the Macarena by heart (We actually had to learn this in music and gym.)

Talk to the hand. . .enough said. (Talk to it baby!)

You went to McDonalds to play in the play place (BALL PIT!)

.....Before the MySpace frenzy.....

Before the Internet & text messaging ......

Before Sidekicks & iPods .

Before PlayStation3 or X-BOX 360

Before Spongebob .....

When light up sneakers were cool and you had spiral spring shoelaces (What can I say, it was easier than tieing them.)

When you rented VHS tapes, not DVDs (Up until 2 years ago, I still did.)

When gas was $1. (Oh those good old days, how I miss thee :'(...)

When we recorded stuff on VCR (Ahh yes, like Hocus Pocus!)

You had slap bracelets! (Bitch those fucking things hurtttttttt!)

You Actually played outside until it was dark! (I miss those days. Sometimes, we would stay out until the moon was in the middle of the sky...)

Way back-Before we realized all this would eventually disappear... (And it's never coming back...)

When I was 3 years old, sitting on my daddy's knee,
he said I could be anything you want to be.
I want to be everything.
One day, I will be.
A teacher, a psychiatrist, a writer,
So many options.
What will YOU choose?

A Vacation Update

I'm leaving Thursday for my dad's and I am so excited but at the same time I'm nervous as all hell. As most of you know, I didn't really grow up with my dad in my life. He was there but always on the fringe, making appearances when it was only convenient for him. I don't hold this against him because I know it was participially because of my mum. They never could get along.

I have Josie's present! It's so pretty. I'm going to get myself one soon. :) I really hope she likes it. I know that me just being there is a present in and of itself. Sorry the picture isn't really clear. I don't know why it wouldn't really work.



I am so addicted to this game called Latte Land on CafeMom. I'm currently a level 15 and own 2 shops.

Polyvore

I have discovered Polyvore. I've known of it, and seen it before. But now I'm actually a user. I'm going to use it to design the clothing sets for my stories over on FanFiction. First up, Can I Have This Dance? It's going to be awesome! Keep an eye out girls.

Today I had an interesting wake up. I opened my eyes to see Cha-Cha standing over me, staring. I must say it was very freaky. I guess she's visiting her dad for a few days. It'll be nice to have someone here to help with the brats.

Josie's Birthday Present

After a week of careful consideration, thoughtful planning, and a lot of asking questions, I have FINALLY gotten Josie her 10th birthday present. She is getting an Italian charm bracelet.

The charms I have decided to give her are:

Happy Birthday Charm (It's her birthday so this one was kind of obvious.)

Ice Skating Charm (She's addicted to ice skating and she's really good at it too.)

I <3 My Mommy Charm (Because she loves her mother very much.)

Musical Notes Charm (I know she loves listening to music so I thought this would be perfect.)

Cellphone Charm (Like most people her age, she spends way to much time on the damn thing.)

I Love You Charm (I wanted to give her this charm because I truly do love her. Even if our parents aren't married, she's my little sister.)

Jack & Sally Charm (Okay so I have no idea if she likes or hell has ever even seen The Nightmare Before Christmas but I adore it and I wanted her to have a representation of me with her at all times. :-))

I hope she likes it. I know the biggest present I can give her though is just being there for her on her birthday. I can't wait to give her, Annie, and dad a big hug. A week with them just doesn't seem long enough but I know I'll be able to go back often. As much as I love my mother, I've been with her for 18 years. I need time with my father. The other half of the equation. I need answers and I need time to connect with him.

I've been listening to music by Michael Jackson lately and I have fallen in love with his version of the famous Charlie Chaplin song Smile. Now I listened to his music BEFORE he died and I haven't liked his music more just because he died. No I have simply rediscovered that which I already liked.

Also I played Guitar Hero for the first time last night on the Wii. Oh my giddy gods trousers. This game is fucking hard! And I had it on EASY! 3 fucking buttons. 3 BUTTONS. Green, red, and fucking yellow. I still couldn't keep up half the time. I even had trouble playing Fur Elise on the fucking thing and it's one of the simplest songs in the damn world.

I'll miss everyone while I'm going. Leave me love. I'll reply when I get back. :-) (Don't worry, I don't leave until the 30th after work.)

The Nightmare Before Christmas

Tonight I am watching The Nightmare Before Christmas as I babysit. I must say, this movie is a masterpiece. Espeically for it's time. I watched this for the first time when I was around 2, when it came out. It has always been one of my favorite movies. I have a hat with Jack on it and I want to get one with Sally on it.

This movie brings out the kid in all of us. And the love story between Jack and Sally touches me.

Some of my favorite quotes are:

Attacked by Christmas toys? That's strange, that's the second toy complaint we've had.

I am the shadow on the moon at night / Filling your dreams to the brim with fright.

Oh, the sound of rolling dice to me is music in the air, / 'cause I'm a gambling Boogie Man, although I don't play fair. / It's much more fun, I must confess, with lives on the line. / Not mine, of course, but yours, old boy, / now, that'll be just fine.

BUNNY!

Just because I cannot see it, doesn't mean I can't believe it!

What's this? What's this? There's color everywhere! What's this? There's white things in the air! What's this? I can't believe my eyes, I must be dreaming; wake up, Jack, this isn't fair! What's this?

Won't they be impressed, I am a ge-ni-ous! See how I transform this old rat inTO a most deLIGHTful hat!

On a side note: I really need to get a laptop and wireless internet at home. This shit is the bomb. I love sitting here watching the movie while on the computer and for once I'm actually comfortable.

Vacation

I'm going away for a week. On July 30th at 6 p.m. I will be boarding a bus in Freeport, IL and going to Chicago, IL for an hour and a half before transferring on another bus to go to Milwaukee where my father and Annie will be waiting to pick me up at around like midnight. I'll be spending a week there before doing the whole thing in reverse.

I'll admit I'm scared/nervous/excited/worried/ect... It's going to be a long week but I think it's going to be worth it. I'll keep y'all updated as time goes on and the date gets closer.

It is not strange to be nervous about meeting the one who gave you life.
It is only natural to fear you will not be accepted.

Harry Potter And The Half Blood Prince

Warning, Spoiler Alert

Last night I went to see the new Harry Potter film, Harry Potter And The Half-Blood Prince. Or HP & HBP as it is easier to say. I was very excited to finally see this movie. As I'm sure we all remember it was originally slated to come out around the same time as Twilight but due to some reason or other it got pushed back to yesterday. I know that anticipation is great for the movie but seriously, I hated the wait.

Now on to the movie. This film was action packed from minute one. They started off with the Death Eaters destroying this bridge. It was...SPECTACULAR! Then of course we jumped right into the thick of things.

Some of my favorite moment's from the movie had to be...

1) When Dumbldore and Harry appiriated. Wow. Then after the walked a few feet Dumbldore said, "I'm sure your wondering why your here Harry." and Harry responded, "After 6 years I just kind of go with it."

2) Ginny and Harry's kiss! OH MY GOD! So sweet. So innocent. SO AWESOME.

3) When Ron ate the chocolates filled with a very powerful love potion. And started hitting on Prof. Slughorn.

4) When Ron said, "I tell you Harry, these girls are gonna kill me."

5) When Ron said Hermiones name in the hospital wing.

6) Every single time Hermione hit one of the boys.

7) Malfoy crying. Even I was moved.

8) Ron trying out for Keeper.

9) When McCormac puked on Snape's shoes! Score!

10) When Snape killed Dumbldore. This moment is very important to the entire series. It is necessery and Dumbldore knew it. That's why he asked Snape to kill him.

Over all I defiantly give this movie a 9/10. Only thing that could have made it any better would have been having Dumbldore's funeral included in the movie but with the movie already being SO long, I can understand why they felt this needed to go. For time constrant reasons. But still, defiantly worth the watch. The graphics were great, the script witty and excellent, and the cast really put their hearts into this movie. Go see it.

Stupid Survey Because I'm Bored

Basic Questions!!

First name- Ashley
Middle name- Nicole
Do you like your name?- Not really
Are you named after anyone?- My initials spell my mums favorite cousins name.
Who?- Ang(ie)
Birthday- March 5, 1991
Current age- 18
Where you were born- Freeport Memorial Hospital, Freeport, IL
Where you currently live- Stockton, IL

Your looks and body!!

Face shape- Rounded
Skin tone- Pale
Do you have acne?- Every once in a while but nothing bad
Hair color- Redish brown dyed.
Hair texture- Thick but soft
Hair style- Wavy
Hair length- A little shorter than shoulder
Eye color- Blue
Eye shape- Rounded almond
How big are your eyes?- 2 inches across, 1 inch tall
Do you wear contacts or glasses?- Only to read on a rare occasion
How about braces? Have/had them?- Nope, never
Do you have straight teeth?- Yes, I suppose
Are they really white?- No...
Do you have high cheekbones?- Not really
Long eyelashes?- So-so
Do you wear makeup?- Rarely...
What kind of makeup do you use?- Lipstick, blush, foundation, eyeshadow, and eyeliner.
What brand of makeup do you use?- Whatever I have around...
What shoe size do you wear?- 9 1/2 - 10
Ring size?- Hmm...9 I think
Belt size?- Don't know
Pant size?- Won't tell
Shirt size?- Fuck off.
How tall are you?- 5'8"
Happy with it?- Yes I am.
Your weight- Go to hell.
Happy with it?- Defiantly not.
Do you exercise a lot?- Does running around after a 6 & 7 year old count???
What kind of exercising do you do?- Chasing after the kids I sit.
Are you 'toned'?- Hell no...
Muscular?- Only my legs...
Overweight?- Yes.
Are you in shape?- No.

You and School!!

What school do you attend?- Mount Carroll, Savanna, Lanark, Stockton, Home schooled...
What grade are you in?- Finished
What classes are you taking?- None
What's your favorite one?- It was lit.
Least favorite?- Gym.
Favorite teacher- Oh defiantly Mr. Pfiffer.
What class do they teach?- Freshman English/Lit
Least favorite teacher- Mrs. Korth / Mr. Jones
What class do they teach?- Gym / Speech-Lit
How many schools have you ever attended?- 4 or 5
Are you in any clubs?- Nah.
What ones?- N/A
What about school plays?- I wish.
Musicals?- Can't sing.
Do you go to a lot of school dances?- Not a single one.
Are you full of school spirit?!?!?- Haha fuck school.
Ever got detention?- Never
Suspended?- Yes once.
Expelled?- Haha nope.

You and Sports!!

Your favorite sport- College Football
Least favorite sport- Basketball
Favorite sports team- Georgia Bulldogs
Least favorite sports team- Any basketball team?
Do you play any sports?- Not on a team
What ones?- Baseball, soccer, ect...
Are you good?- As the goalie in soccer I am.
What sport would you like to be better at?- Baseball
Is cheerleading a sport?- Depends...Is chess?
What's your favorite sport to watch?- College football
To play?- Baseball

You and Music!!

Your favorite type of music- Country or current
Favorite band(s)- Jimmy Buffett, Reba, Taylor Swift, ect...
Favorite song(s)- Boy Meets Girl, He Could Be The One, Her Diamonds, ect...
Least favorite type of music- Heavy Metal
Least favorite band(s)- Alice In Chains, Nine Inch Nails, ect...
Least favorite song(s)- IDK...
Did/do you take any classes relating to music in highschool/college?- Yes.
Do you play an instrument?- I can play the scales on the flute, picoloe, and sax.
What one(s)?- See above.
Do you like dancing to music? Yes.
Do you like singing? I love to even though I can't.

You and Your Friends!!

Best- Tess
Nicest- Abby
Cutest- David
Shyest- Paul
Friendliest- Darek
Dorkiest- Matthew
Prettiest- Cha Cha
Ugliest- No comment
Sweetest- Annabell
Most reliable- My mummy...
Least reliable- Tess
Best singer- Brian S.
Best dancer-Em
Best at an instrument- Tasha
Best artist- Bethy
Biggest appetite- Joe!

You and Love!!

Do you have a crush/boyfriend/girlfriend?- I'm not sure...
Their name- Darek
Do they know (if it's a crush)?- Yes
Do you like anyone?- Umm yeah
Are you a virgin?- Haha no
Do you want to remain a virgin until marriage?- I'm not a virgin
How far have you gone?- God it's the same question phrased 3 different ways.
Are you in love? Yes I am.
Have you ever been in love?- Yes.
Who was your first.. crush?- Jacob
Date?- Matthew
Person you held hands with?- my mother?? I don't know. Idiots.
Kiss?- Alfred
Person you made out with?- Matthew
Person you had sex with?- Ray
Who was your last.. crush?- Darek
Date?- Tony
Kiss?- Tony
Person you made out with?- Tony
Person you had sex with?- Tony

You and the future!!

Do you want to get married?- Yes.
By what age?- 25
Do you want to have children?- Very much so.
How many?- 4
By what age?- 30
Their names?- Alice, Emma, Lucas, and Liam
What is your future career going to be?- Author/Psychiatrist.

Quotes...Quotes...And more quotes...

I am in a quote-y mood so I thought I would share some of my favorites!

Something everyone should remember: Emmett is the strongest, Edward is the fastest, but Jasper can sit alone in a corner and still make you feel jealous.

Keep smiling - it makes people wonder what your up to.

I don't mind if you sleep in class, but please do not snore, you are disrupting those who are sleeping.

To put it nicely, I hope you choke.

It's you and me verses the world...we attack at dawn!

To insure you hit the target, shoot first and call whatever you hit the target.

Being mature is overrated.

Being weird is like being normal, only better.

I'm not clumsy! The floor just hates me.

There cannot be a crisis this week; my schedule is full!

I worry about you sometimes.

Hug trees, they have less issues than people.

I reject your reality and substitute my own.

Education is important; school however is another matter.

Common sense is the most uncommon thing in the world.

Fear is a good thing. It means your paying attention.

Stress: A condition caused by repressing the body's desire to strangle the living daylights out of some jerk who desperately deserves it.

Why be difficult, when with just a little bit of effort, you can be impossible?

If you can keep your head on while other people are losing theirs, you probably don't fully understand the situation.

I'm a peaceful person filled with a violent rage.

I don't obsess! I think intensely.

I have the cape, I make the whoosh noises!

I'm the kind of person who walks into a door and apologizes.

I don't suffer from insanity...I enjoy every minute of it.

There is a fine line between genius and insanity. I have erased that line.

Hippopotomonstrousaequipodaliophobia - The fear of long words.

We are not lost, we are locationally challenged!

Anyone who uses the phrase, as easy as taking candy from a baby, has obviously never tried.

My favorite word is sarcasm...

Bring back my tear or I'm going to have to cry a lot more of them tomorrow.

I like him because he smiles at me and means it.

And you can quote me on the quote, unquote.

To live is the rarest thing; most people only exist.

Boys in books are just...better...

It's pretty sad when you think about it. But I don't think about it.

Aerodynamically, the bumblebee shouldn't be able to fly, but the bumblebee doesn't know it, so it keeps flying anyway.

I miss you...a lot.

Falling in love with you was the best and worst idea I've ever had.

Forged in war, born of death, saved by love.

Life has to end, love doesn't.

Nothing of me is original. I am the combined effort of everybody I've ever known.

Never let the fear of striking out keep you from playing the game.

I hate that I love you.

The lower you fall, the higher you'll fly.

We all die. The goal isn't to live forever, the goal is to create something that will.

Gnothi seauton - Know Thyself

Writing

I've always had a passion for the written word. When I was younger it was simply the reading that I enjoyed but then I started writing my own work. At first only one person was aloud to read what I wrote. She was my best friend at the time and enjoyed what I wrote. It was always something romantic or high schoolish. I didn't like it. It never really felt genuine to me. I was writing what I knew Heather would like to read. Plain and simple.

She writes to please others because she craves the words she knew her readers would say.

After a few years I began working more on poetry instead of stories. My poetry was sad and depressing. Dark and suicidle. I wasn't in a good place and neither was my work. I couldn't handle life and so I tried to end mine. As I'm sure we can all see, I didn't succeed. After my failed attempt, I had a new outlook on life. My writing brightened.

It takes the darkest night to make the brightest day.

My work now isn't always cheerful. There are a lot of dark themes. Murder, sex, and vampires being the 3 things I write most about. My favorite stories I've written are most defiantly All I Want For Christmas (Murder), Ice Cube Kisses (Sex), and The Lie Detector Test (Vampires...specifically Twilight vampires).

Writing is better than sex because for once,
you can score the best one, instead of the same ole same.

Now I write for me and me alone. I don't write to please people. I write to please myself.

I love him...

I have a secret love affair with the Hannah Montana show. On the newest episode Hannah/Miley (MPD anyone?) sang a song called He Could Be The One.

He Could Be The One
Hannah Montana / Miley Cyrus

Smooth talkin'
So rockin'
A-he's got everything
That a girl's wantin'
Guitar cutie
He plays it groovy
And I can't keep myself
From doing somethin' stupid
Think I'm really falling for his smile
There's butterflies when he says my name

[Chorus:]
He's got something special
He's got something special
And when he's looking at me
I wanna get it all sentimental
He's got something special
He's got something special
I can hardly breathe
Something's telling me
Telling me maybe
He could be the one
He could be the one
He could be the one
He could be the one
He could be the one
He could be the one

He's lightnin'
Sparks are flyin'
Everywhere I go
He's always on my mind and
I'm going crazy
About him lately
And I can't help myself
From how my heart is racin'
Think I'm really diggin' on his vibe
He really blows me away

[Repeat Chorus:]

And he's got a way
Of making me feel
Like everything I do is
Perfectly fine
The stars are aligned
When I'm with him
And I'm so into him

He's got something special
He's got something special
And when he's looking at me
I wanna get all sentimental
He's got something special
He's got something special
I can hardly breathe
Something's telling me
Telling me maybe
He could be the one
He could be the one
He could be the one
He could be the one
He could be the one
He could be the one
He could be the one

In other news, tonight is the new season premier of Eureka on the new SyFy channel. Someone want to explain why my SciFi is now SyFy?? I liked it better the other way. I'm excited to see the new season of Eureka after the way they left it last year...I mean come on! Carter is like no longer the sheriff and Jo is going all nuts...and what about Zoey and Allison and Zane?? And who could forget Fargo? Yeah I'm not in love with this show or anything like that.

I'm still playing around on eBay and have actually made money! I'm so proud of myself. I'm defianatly going to keep up on there.

Write me a song; one that makes all the girls cry.

Michael Jackson Tribute

Today was the Michael Jackson tribute. Both public and private. I didn't see all of the public tribute but I did see the second half, or third, starting with John Mayer's touching performance. I then saw the touching speech by Brooke Shields. There were many great speeches, all of them very touching. Michael Jackson's brother Jermaine preformed Smile and it broke my heart.

The hardest thing to see was when Michael's daughter Paris spoke. She made a few short remarks before having a complete breakdown. She had to be escorted off stage by her aunt, Janet.

That's all I can really say about the memorial/tribute is that it was very touching and I defiantly suggest all watch.

Today's Life

Today is the first game of the second series of the season between the Cubs and the Braves. The Cubs are currently winning but we all know the score could change in the blink of an eye. My friend David (a.K.a. Fuzz) are betting on this series. Currently we do not have the terms of the bet really ironed out. But no doubt it will be interesting when whoever wins, wins. We shall see. I believe there will be pictures involved.

Today is also The Bachelorette. They are currently in Spain. Jillian and the 4 remaining boys are exploring the Spanish culture and personally, I love Kiptyn and hope they end up together. If Kip and Jillian don't fit then I wouldn't mind seeing her with like Jacob maybe. Or Reid. But I would hate for her to end up with Wes. I truly think Wes has a girlfriend. He totally seems the type. I'm not really sure about Jacob or Reid because I don't really watch the show. I just kind of ended up watching it one day and got engrossed.

So I'm scared and I have no one to talk to. I made a stupid mistake and I'm afraid I'm going to have to pay for it. I can't talk to my boyfriend about it and my sissy will kill me if I tell her. I just don't know what to do. Going to the doctor in a week if problem doesn't fix itself.

Today is definatly one of those days where you crawl out of bed and just want to turn right around and go back to sleep. I miss my boyfriend, I miss my friends, I miss my old life in general. Maybe one day I'll get all this shit figured out.

Music

Music plays a big part in my life as I'm sure it does yours. I have A.D.H.D and I often find it hard to concentrate without music. In silence my mind tends to wander far and wide. Though the wandering can be good. Without wandering, my mind might not be able to come up with some of the great ideas it does. Music inspires me to write, to dance, to laugh and to cry, and to do many other things. Personally I find inspiration in most genres of music. From country to pop to rock and roll. I love listening to not only people like Rob Thomas and Theory Of A Deadman but also Jessica Harp, Alicia Keys, Lil Wayne, The Bloodhound Gang, and Jimmy Buffett.

I recently fell in love with the song Boy Meets Girl. If you haven't listened to it yet, defiantly go look it up.

Boy Meets Girl
Evan Taubenfeld

With a bang
She was there
Yeah she blew apart my cover I wasn't looking for a lover
And I crashed
I fell apart
and now I'm picking up the pieces
No they're no exactly piece's
but it's a start

Did you ever think I'd let you go?
You're the only thing I've ever known
It's like twisted sister
Meets Mr. Mister
It's like a rolling thunder
Meets careless a whisper
It's like Jesus Jones and the Rolling Stones
In a game of Twister
It's like boy meets girl

(la, la, la, la, la, la, la, la, la, la, la, la, la, la, la, la, la)

And she went right
And I went wrong
By the time I turned around and looked for her over my shoulder
She was gone
I'll never know
How to make her favorite drink and does she like the color pink and hate her To-o-oes

Did you ever think I'd let you go?
I think I always knew that we'd grow old
It's like Twisted Sister meets Mr. Mister
It's like a shout at the devil
(shout)
Meets a careless whisper
It's like motor head and the grateful dead
In a game of Twister
It's like boy meets girl

When I
When I saw you
I could see
I wanna wanna have you
Lyin' next to me
Wish that I could take it back
Put you on my favorite track
And play you on repeat
Everyday since then
Is incomplete

It's like Twisted Sister meets Mr. Mister
It's like a rolling thunder
Meets a careless whisper
It's like Fleetwood Mac
Biggie and Tupac
In a game of Twister
It's like boy meets girl

(la, la, la, la, la, la, la, la, la)

It's like boy meets girl

(la, la, la, la, la, la, la, la, la)

It's like you and me, girl
You'll always be my girl

(la, la, la, la, la, la, la, la, la)

eBay

Selling on eBay is not for the faint of heart or the weak of mind. I must say, I now have a new appreciation for people who sell on there like it's their job. I just wanted to get rid of some old stuff, not become an eBay expert. I don't know, maybe I'm just slow but this isn't as easy as people make it look. The really hard part of all of it has to be the discription part. It's not easy to make something you hate sound like something someone else would love. I loved the Kingdom Hearts video game series, until I started playing Kingdom Hearts RE: Chain Of Memories. This game is EVIL. It's nothing like the ones I had known and loved. Hell it's a turn based fighting system...umm eww. I like to be able to fight by mashing the fuck out of the buttons...not taking my damn turn. Well that's all I can say for now, I have to go set up a PayPal account for this stupid shit.

Vacation? I wish!

July 1st. Felt more like May 1st. It's sad how bad the weather is acting up.

This is where I want to be...

Volterra, Italy
Home of the Italian Vampire Mafia