A beautiful young man stood alone in the middle of a wheat field; a light breeze causing the wheat to brush gently against his white pant leg. His bare chest gleamed in the sun. A soft smile played across his face, brightening his pale blue eyes. The young man’s hair tussled in the wind, making it look messy.
“God?” the young man asked. “Can you hear me? Am I dead?”
A melodic voice answered from the clouds, “It is I, my child. I can hear you now just as clear as I’ve always been able to. I’m sorry for your life being cut short.”
The young man’s voice was thin as he asked, “Where am I? This surly cannot be hell. Nor do I believe this is heaven.”
“No, you’re not in hell nor have you reached the gates of heaven yet. This, this is limbo I suppose. A place to prove that you deserve to join me in heaven or spend eternity in hell. Now Lucas, tell me why you deserve to join me in heaven,” God said, looking down at Lucas from the clouds.
“But God,” Lucas murmured. “I don’t deserve to go to heaven.”
“Why do you believe you don’t deserve to go to heaven my child?” God asked Lucas, curious to hear his answer.
“I’ve done terrible things in my life. I’ve lied and cheated. I’ve stolen. I’ve been selfish and self-indulgent. I grew up in prison for a reason,” Lucas told God honestly.
“Have you truly seen only the bad you’ve done? What about the lives you’ve touched? The people you’ve helped?” God asked.
“What lives?” Lucas asked, blind to all the good he’s done.
God sighed and said, “I’m sure you remember Emma Wright. When she first wrote you she was scared and broken. You gave her hope and taught her to laugh again. Then there’s Brandon Miller, your ex-cellmate. He was going to commit suicide that night. You calmed him down and reminded him he had something to live for. If not for you, his little girl would have never known her father. Shall I continue?”
“I…I really helped those people?” Lucas asked, shocked. He honestly thought he wasn’t worth much, worth anything.
“Yes, you truly did. I think all the good you did far outweighs the bad. I know in my heart you’ve earned your fate. Close your eyes my child. This will hurt for but a moment,” God told Lucas.
Lucas closed his eyes. He knew even though God said he’d done good in his life he deserved an eternity in hell, an eternity of pain.
A jolt ripped through Lucas’s back. It felt as though his flesh was being torn apart. A single tear rolled down his face as the pain subsided.
The sound of a thousand wings beating filled the air as God said, “Open your eyes my child and come home.”
Lucas opened his eyes to see himself surrounded by the souls of the prisoners who went before him, their lives too cut short by others. All had their wings and were smiling. Ready to welcome a new angel into their ranks.
Directly in front of Lucas was a gilded mirror. He gasped when he saw what had caused his pain. He too had been given wings.
“Welcome home my son,” God whispered as Lucas took flight for the first time.
Tuesday, December 15, 2009
Saturday, December 5, 2009
Holiday's Are Here!
Winter is officially here. Over the last couple days the snow has started to fall, the tempature has plummetted, and the fucking Christmas decorations have popped up everywhere. I've never really been a big fan of winter. To much snow, to much ice, to little heat. I swear to God, I'm going to end up moving to Georgia. Maybe like Augusta. Near a good friend of mine.
So much has happened since Halloween. I lost my job as a deli worker in Elizabeth then Ryan and I broke up. Well I'm trying to break up with him but he's a stubborn bastard and isn't making it easy. And of course, every time he tells me he loves me and he'll change, I melt. But I don't love him. Not anymore. And I don't miss him either. I miss what we had but that's it. I miss having someone to call my own. Someone I can turn to with tears running down my face and they'll ask who hurt me. Because I deserve that. I deserve to be with someone who'll help me, who'll protect me. I guess when I thought Ryan was perfect for me, I was lying to myself.
Other things that have happened...I started hanging out with my mum's side of the family again. Of course things haven't changed yet with dad's side. Though I did find out Nichole is 8 weeks pregnant. I can't say I'm really surprised that she's pregnant what with Cory living with her and everything but 17 is kind of young to be a mother and her mother (my aunt Debbie) is actually fucking EXCITED her daughter is pregnant. I think it's going to be a girl. Our family seems to have a tradition. The oldest children are almost always girls. Except for with Aunt Mary but she's fucking weird anyways.
Thanksgiving was fairly boring. Not a whole lot happened but that's how most holiday's are around here. There's a reason I've never been big into celebrating. I'll give you one or two guess as to why that is...
With Christmas coming up I've been thinking a lot about what I want...I'd like either a donation to Locks Of Love, St. Jude's, or a gift card. Because as far as materialistic things go, I have no idea what I want. Oh and good books are always welcome.
What else to tell? I'm thinking about writing a book about a woman who just won't die. Over 1000 visits to the hospital and she's still kicking. But not until after Grandma's dead. Until then, a book about a girl and her sexual fantisies.
Well I promise to write more soon but until then, PEACE OUT!
So much has happened since Halloween. I lost my job as a deli worker in Elizabeth then Ryan and I broke up. Well I'm trying to break up with him but he's a stubborn bastard and isn't making it easy. And of course, every time he tells me he loves me and he'll change, I melt. But I don't love him. Not anymore. And I don't miss him either. I miss what we had but that's it. I miss having someone to call my own. Someone I can turn to with tears running down my face and they'll ask who hurt me. Because I deserve that. I deserve to be with someone who'll help me, who'll protect me. I guess when I thought Ryan was perfect for me, I was lying to myself.
Other things that have happened...I started hanging out with my mum's side of the family again. Of course things haven't changed yet with dad's side. Though I did find out Nichole is 8 weeks pregnant. I can't say I'm really surprised that she's pregnant what with Cory living with her and everything but 17 is kind of young to be a mother and her mother (my aunt Debbie) is actually fucking EXCITED her daughter is pregnant. I think it's going to be a girl. Our family seems to have a tradition. The oldest children are almost always girls. Except for with Aunt Mary but she's fucking weird anyways.
Thanksgiving was fairly boring. Not a whole lot happened but that's how most holiday's are around here. There's a reason I've never been big into celebrating. I'll give you one or two guess as to why that is...
With Christmas coming up I've been thinking a lot about what I want...I'd like either a donation to Locks Of Love, St. Jude's, or a gift card. Because as far as materialistic things go, I have no idea what I want. Oh and good books are always welcome.
What else to tell? I'm thinking about writing a book about a woman who just won't die. Over 1000 visits to the hospital and she's still kicking. But not until after Grandma's dead. Until then, a book about a girl and her sexual fantisies.
Well I promise to write more soon but until then, PEACE OUT!
Tuesday, November 24, 2009
"IT’S CALLED CHRISTMAS WITH A CAPITAL C "
"IT’S CALLED CHRISTMAS WITH A CAPITAL C "
It’s called Christmas!
Well I went to the coffee shop to get myself a mocha,
The lady at the counter said "Happy holidays";
I said, "Thanks lady, I am pretty happy,
But there’s only one holiday that makes me feel that way."
It’s called Christmas, what more can I say?
It’s about the birth of Christ
and you can’t take that away.
You can call it something else,
but that’s not what it will be.
It’s called Christmas with a capital "C."
God's got a law and we pretty much destroyed it.
We’re gonna get judged, there’s no way to avoid it.
But Jesus came down to take the punishment for me.
He did it for you too, so maybe you can see . . .
Why It’s called Christmas, what more can I say?
It’s about the birth of Christ
and you can’t take that away.
You can call it something else,
but that’s not what it will be.
It’s called Christmas with a capital "C."
It’s called Christmas!
It’s called Christmas!
It’s called Christmas!
It’s called Christmas!
It’s called Christmas, what more can I say?
It’s about the birth of Christ
and you can’t take that away.
You can call it something else,
but that’s not what it will be.
It’s called Christmas with a capital "C."
It’s called Christmas!
Well I went to the coffee shop to get myself a mocha,
The lady at the counter said "Happy holidays";
I said, "Thanks lady, I am pretty happy,
But there’s only one holiday that makes me feel that way."
It’s called Christmas, what more can I say?
It’s about the birth of Christ
and you can’t take that away.
You can call it something else,
but that’s not what it will be.
It’s called Christmas with a capital "C."
God's got a law and we pretty much destroyed it.
We’re gonna get judged, there’s no way to avoid it.
But Jesus came down to take the punishment for me.
He did it for you too, so maybe you can see . . .
Why It’s called Christmas, what more can I say?
It’s about the birth of Christ
and you can’t take that away.
You can call it something else,
but that’s not what it will be.
It’s called Christmas with a capital "C."
It’s called Christmas!
It’s called Christmas!
It’s called Christmas!
It’s called Christmas!
It’s called Christmas, what more can I say?
It’s about the birth of Christ
and you can’t take that away.
You can call it something else,
but that’s not what it will be.
It’s called Christmas with a capital "C."
Wednesday, October 14, 2009
Walking On Broken Glass
Walking On Broken Glass by Ashley Allan
Once upon a time there was a beautiful girl named Cinderella. Some people would say she was too beautiful. The young girl harbored a dark secret. She had killed her first step-mother so her father would marry the housekeeper, Lady Sophia. For you see, Lady Sophia had 2 daughters and Cinderella always wanted sisters.
2 short months after Lady Sophia and Lord Lucas married, tragedy struck the house once again. Lord Lucas was riding home one afternoon when he and his horse were attacked. Lord Lucas fell at the attacker’s sword.
Once Lord Lucas was in the ground, the sweet Lady Sophia was gone. In her place was a wicked woman who treated young Cinderella like a stepping stool. Lady Sophia’s daughters, Annise and Charlotte, were no better.
Cinderella was expected to cook, clean, and be at her evil step families disposable. Anything Lady Sophia, Annise, or Charlotte wanted, Cinderella was to take care of.
A week before Halloween, the Royal Messenger came to the house baring an invitation from the Prince. It was addressed to all the women of the house.
To Every Eligible Women Of The Land:
The Prince, His Royal Highness Sir Michael Anthony
Is Throwing A Halloween Ball To Find A Bride.
Please Come In Costume October 31st.
The Party Commences At Sunset.
Lady Sophia and her daughters were out shopping when the invitation came. Cinderella was so happy for she never got invited to anything.
Upon Lady Sophia’s return, Cinderella showed her the invitation.
“And I’m invited too!” Cinderella exclaimed.
Lady Sophia cackled, “As though anyone would want you. You’re nothing but a grubby little shit. You’re not going anywhere.”
Hot tears rolled down Cinderella’s face as she ran to the dank little room under the stairs where she was forced to sleep. It was there she vowed to get revenge for the last 8 years. When she came out to make dinner, she was feeling much better.
Cinderella waited until bedtime tea before she slipped a little arsenic in Annise and Charlotte’s tea. Cinderella decided not to simply poison her wicked step-mother. No, she had a much more personal approach for Lady Sophia.
After everyone was asleep, Cinderella went into Lady Sophia’s room. Cinderella stood over Lady Sophia, watching her sleep.
“Lady Sophia,” Cinderella whispered unnerving. “Oh Lady Sophia. Your life is about over. Open your eyes and say goodbye.”
As Lady Sophia’s eyes flittered open, Cinderella began stabbing Lady Sophia over and over again. If anyone had taken the time to count, they would have discovered that Lady Sophia had been stabbed 107 times. Nothing but pure rage.
Thankfully no one ever came out to check on the women. That was yet another job of Cinderella’s after all.
Cinderella went to Annise and Charlotte’s room and stabbed them both repeatedly, even though they were already dead.
Cinderella burned her clothes and hid the knife where it would never be found. Then she took a long hot bath before going to bed.
The next morning she ran into town, screaming of murder. The local constable believed Cinderella’s story and the bodies were removed from Cinderella’s house.
On Halloween night, Cinderella dressed up as a witch and went to the castle. By the time she got there, the ball had already begun. The King was not very happy for he wanted the Prince to marry. The Prince had danced with all the girls though and he’d not fallen in love.
“Love at first sight only happens in fairy tales,” the Queen told the King.
At that moment, Cinderella walked into the ball room. Everyone stopped to stare at Cinderella. Even the Prince looked at her in wonder. Even the Prince looked at her in amazement. She was the girl of his dreams!
The Prince asked Cinderella to dance. When the song ended, the Prince took Cinderella out to the gardens.
As the tower clock struck midnight, Cinderella’s glass slippers shattered on her feet. The glass embedded in Cinderella’s feet and try as hard as they might, the kingdoms finest doctors couldn’t remove the glass.
Cinderella was to atone for her past digressions by walking on glass for the rest of her life.
Once upon a time there was a beautiful girl named Cinderella. Some people would say she was too beautiful. The young girl harbored a dark secret. She had killed her first step-mother so her father would marry the housekeeper, Lady Sophia. For you see, Lady Sophia had 2 daughters and Cinderella always wanted sisters.
2 short months after Lady Sophia and Lord Lucas married, tragedy struck the house once again. Lord Lucas was riding home one afternoon when he and his horse were attacked. Lord Lucas fell at the attacker’s sword.
Once Lord Lucas was in the ground, the sweet Lady Sophia was gone. In her place was a wicked woman who treated young Cinderella like a stepping stool. Lady Sophia’s daughters, Annise and Charlotte, were no better.
Cinderella was expected to cook, clean, and be at her evil step families disposable. Anything Lady Sophia, Annise, or Charlotte wanted, Cinderella was to take care of.
A week before Halloween, the Royal Messenger came to the house baring an invitation from the Prince. It was addressed to all the women of the house.
To Every Eligible Women Of The Land:
The Prince, His Royal Highness Sir Michael Anthony
Is Throwing A Halloween Ball To Find A Bride.
Please Come In Costume October 31st.
The Party Commences At Sunset.
Lady Sophia and her daughters were out shopping when the invitation came. Cinderella was so happy for she never got invited to anything.
Upon Lady Sophia’s return, Cinderella showed her the invitation.
“And I’m invited too!” Cinderella exclaimed.
Lady Sophia cackled, “As though anyone would want you. You’re nothing but a grubby little shit. You’re not going anywhere.”
Hot tears rolled down Cinderella’s face as she ran to the dank little room under the stairs where she was forced to sleep. It was there she vowed to get revenge for the last 8 years. When she came out to make dinner, she was feeling much better.
Cinderella waited until bedtime tea before she slipped a little arsenic in Annise and Charlotte’s tea. Cinderella decided not to simply poison her wicked step-mother. No, she had a much more personal approach for Lady Sophia.
After everyone was asleep, Cinderella went into Lady Sophia’s room. Cinderella stood over Lady Sophia, watching her sleep.
“Lady Sophia,” Cinderella whispered unnerving. “Oh Lady Sophia. Your life is about over. Open your eyes and say goodbye.”
As Lady Sophia’s eyes flittered open, Cinderella began stabbing Lady Sophia over and over again. If anyone had taken the time to count, they would have discovered that Lady Sophia had been stabbed 107 times. Nothing but pure rage.
Thankfully no one ever came out to check on the women. That was yet another job of Cinderella’s after all.
Cinderella went to Annise and Charlotte’s room and stabbed them both repeatedly, even though they were already dead.
Cinderella burned her clothes and hid the knife where it would never be found. Then she took a long hot bath before going to bed.
The next morning she ran into town, screaming of murder. The local constable believed Cinderella’s story and the bodies were removed from Cinderella’s house.
On Halloween night, Cinderella dressed up as a witch and went to the castle. By the time she got there, the ball had already begun. The King was not very happy for he wanted the Prince to marry. The Prince had danced with all the girls though and he’d not fallen in love.
“Love at first sight only happens in fairy tales,” the Queen told the King.
At that moment, Cinderella walked into the ball room. Everyone stopped to stare at Cinderella. Even the Prince looked at her in wonder. Even the Prince looked at her in amazement. She was the girl of his dreams!
The Prince asked Cinderella to dance. When the song ended, the Prince took Cinderella out to the gardens.
As the tower clock struck midnight, Cinderella’s glass slippers shattered on her feet. The glass embedded in Cinderella’s feet and try as hard as they might, the kingdoms finest doctors couldn’t remove the glass.
Cinderella was to atone for her past digressions by walking on glass for the rest of her life.
Friday, October 9, 2009
Pink For Breast Cancer Awareness :-)
So much has happened lately. Ryan went to the doctor today. They're going to do an ultrasound next Thursday. His appointment is at 9a.m. Unfortunately with my new job I have to be at work by 9. Otherwise I would be there with him. I'm so scared. Losing him will kill me. Everyone is trying to assure me it's nothing but how can they be sure?
As I said above, I got a new job. I'm going to be working in a deli/gas station. It's not a glamorous job nor is it one I actually want but I need a "normal" job. I'm drowning in bills. They need to get paid and babysitting sure as shit isn't going to pay them.
October is here. That means Breast Cancer Awareness month. Save the Ta-Tas, Save the World. Yeah, I went there. I don't actually watch Heroes but I love their catch phrase.
"Horrorcore" Music is being blamed for the murders of 4 people in Virgina. The murderer was down with the clown. If you get that reference, I'll love you forever. If not, it's an ICP reference. (Insane Clown Posse) ICP really brought "Horrorcore" to the world. You can't blame music for someones actions. Nor can you blame video games, movies, or anything else like that.
Barack Obama was awarded with the Nobel Peace Prize today. I can't really say that I agree with it. I think there are so many more people that are more deserving. I know that I am not the only person who feels this way. However I still want to congratulate President Obama for winning.
Also in the news today was an article about NASA's attempt to blow up the moon. I don't know about you, but I think the moon's pretty damn important and blowing up a bit of it just to see if there's water on the moon is idiotic. Now NASA says the moon strike worked. Of course they're not sharing whether or not there is water on the moon yet. NASA is so tight lipped anymore it's ridiculous. The problem I have with shooting rockets at the moon with the express intent to blow shit up is we could seriously mess up our world if we manage to push the moon just a mile off course. We live in a world of delicate balances. We don't want to complete fuck our futures up do we?
It seems that summer has given way to winter once again. Skipping fall completely. They are calling for SNOW. IN OCTOBER. This is going to be a really fucking long winter at this rate. I'm moving to Georgia. *sobs* I miss spring and fall. But I really miss spring. Warm rain, blooming flowers, and the beautiful scents that fill the air. Actually moving somewhere warmer is a good possibility. I bet I could convince Ryan to move to somewhere like Tennessee or Alabama. Somewhere with a lot of trains would get him moving.
As I said above, I got a new job. I'm going to be working in a deli/gas station. It's not a glamorous job nor is it one I actually want but I need a "normal" job. I'm drowning in bills. They need to get paid and babysitting sure as shit isn't going to pay them.
October is here. That means Breast Cancer Awareness month. Save the Ta-Tas, Save the World. Yeah, I went there. I don't actually watch Heroes but I love their catch phrase.
"Horrorcore" Music is being blamed for the murders of 4 people in Virgina. The murderer was down with the clown. If you get that reference, I'll love you forever. If not, it's an ICP reference. (Insane Clown Posse) ICP really brought "Horrorcore" to the world. You can't blame music for someones actions. Nor can you blame video games, movies, or anything else like that.
Barack Obama was awarded with the Nobel Peace Prize today. I can't really say that I agree with it. I think there are so many more people that are more deserving. I know that I am not the only person who feels this way. However I still want to congratulate President Obama for winning.
Also in the news today was an article about NASA's attempt to blow up the moon. I don't know about you, but I think the moon's pretty damn important and blowing up a bit of it just to see if there's water on the moon is idiotic. Now NASA says the moon strike worked. Of course they're not sharing whether or not there is water on the moon yet. NASA is so tight lipped anymore it's ridiculous. The problem I have with shooting rockets at the moon with the express intent to blow shit up is we could seriously mess up our world if we manage to push the moon just a mile off course. We live in a world of delicate balances. We don't want to complete fuck our futures up do we?
It seems that summer has given way to winter once again. Skipping fall completely. They are calling for SNOW. IN OCTOBER. This is going to be a really fucking long winter at this rate. I'm moving to Georgia. *sobs* I miss spring and fall. But I really miss spring. Warm rain, blooming flowers, and the beautiful scents that fill the air. Actually moving somewhere warmer is a good possibility. I bet I could convince Ryan to move to somewhere like Tennessee or Alabama. Somewhere with a lot of trains would get him moving.
The Perfect Moment? Every Time I'm In His Arms.
If You Can't Daze Them With Your Intellect, Baffle Them With Your Bullshit.
Sunday, October 4, 2009
I will stand by you forever.
Today made one month for Ryan and I. Anyone who knows me, knows that's a fairly huge accomplishment. Most of they guys I've dated have found someone else to love by now or just fell out of love with me. I don't think that's going to happen with Ryan and I. He knows my fears and I know his, to a point. We both have things that are private. I have never assumed to know all his fears and I doubt he thinks he knows all mine. But we know the important ones.
I am so not going to start celebrating every month but the first month is very special to me. Ryan's birthday is the next big celebration on the horizon. He's turning 24 on the 23rd but we're not celebrating until the 23th because he'll be celebrating his actual birthday with his family. Some may wonder why I'm not celebrating his birthday with them. That would be because I haven't actually met them. It's not that I'm a secret per-say. Ryan's mother, Jean, knows about me but Ryan's father, Larry, and his brother, Sean, don't. At least they didn't last time I checked.
I don't feel like a secret usually but sometimes...Sometimes I do. I want to spend my life with Ryan, but I don't want to do it without his family knowing. I plan on having kids. Not right now, but before I'm 25, and I want them to know their fathers side of the family. Also, I'm pretty sure Ryan would want them at the wedding. I know some of you are going 'WTF?' out there but Ryan and I have always talked about marriage and we both want to get married eventually. Actually to be technical, Ryan already asked me. But it was just jokingly. We hadn't even known each other a week at that point.
Before we get married, or have kids, or even think about getting our own place together, Ryan and I need to talk about some things. We're not twins, and we need to figure out a way for this to work without either of us loosing our independence or our unique personalities. Like his love of trains and sports or my love of reading and writing. What's great is we do have a good amount of things in common. Like we both love playing video games, and we neither of us lets the other win. It's not that we're overly competitive, we just like challenging each other.
Every time I hear this song, I think of Ryan and how much he means to me.
I am so not going to start celebrating every month but the first month is very special to me. Ryan's birthday is the next big celebration on the horizon. He's turning 24 on the 23rd but we're not celebrating until the 23th because he'll be celebrating his actual birthday with his family. Some may wonder why I'm not celebrating his birthday with them. That would be because I haven't actually met them. It's not that I'm a secret per-say. Ryan's mother, Jean, knows about me but Ryan's father, Larry, and his brother, Sean, don't. At least they didn't last time I checked.
I don't feel like a secret usually but sometimes...Sometimes I do. I want to spend my life with Ryan, but I don't want to do it without his family knowing. I plan on having kids. Not right now, but before I'm 25, and I want them to know their fathers side of the family. Also, I'm pretty sure Ryan would want them at the wedding. I know some of you are going 'WTF?' out there but Ryan and I have always talked about marriage and we both want to get married eventually. Actually to be technical, Ryan already asked me. But it was just jokingly. We hadn't even known each other a week at that point.
Before we get married, or have kids, or even think about getting our own place together, Ryan and I need to talk about some things. We're not twins, and we need to figure out a way for this to work without either of us loosing our independence or our unique personalities. Like his love of trains and sports or my love of reading and writing. What's great is we do have a good amount of things in common. Like we both love playing video games, and we neither of us lets the other win. It's not that we're overly competitive, we just like challenging each other.
Every time I hear this song, I think of Ryan and how much he means to me.
Would you dance, if i asked you to dance?
Would you run and never look back?
Would you cry if you saw me crying?
And, would you save my soul tonight?
Would you tremble if I touched your lips?
Would you laugh? Oh please tell me this.
Now would you die, for the one that you love?
Hold me in your arms tonight.
I can be your hero baby.
I can kiss away the pain.
I will stand by you forever.
You can take my breath away.
Would swear that you'll always be mine?
Or would you lie, would you run and hide?
Am I in to deep?
Have i lost my mind?
I don't care, you're here tonight.
I can be your hero baby.
I can kiss away the pain.
I will stand by you forever.
You can take my breath away.
Oh, I just want to hold you.
I just want to hold you.
Am I in too deep?
Have I lost my mind?
Well I don't care, you're here tonight.
I can be your hero baby.
I can kiss away the pain.
I will stand by you forever.
You can take my breath away.
I cant be your hero baby.
I can kiss away the pain.
I will stand by you forever.
You can take my breath away.
I can be your hero...
Monday, September 21, 2009
Autistic People
Autism. To so many people it's a scary word. To me it's not. The man I love is Autistic. My "aunt's" son is Autistic.
Autism is a brain development disorder characterized by impaired social interaction and communication, and by restricted and repetitive behavior. These signs all begin before a child is three years old. Autism involves many parts of the brain; how this occurs is not well understood. The two other autism spectrum disorders (ASD) are Asperger syndrome, which lacks delays in cognitive development and language, and PDD-NOS, diagnosed when full criteria for the other two disorders are not met. Not all people are diagnosed at such a young age though. My boyfriend wasn't diagnosed until recently. (A few years ago recent, not like last week recent.)
Every 1 - 150 people will be diagnosed with Autism. Autism is also 4 times more likely to occur in boys than girls. That guy you stare at because he acts a little different probably has a form of autism. Keep staring. Maybe you'll cure his autism. After that we can work on your social skills. I hate how so many people stare at Dane (My cousin) because he flaps his arms and is constantly moving. He's special. Get over it. He is also amazingly intelligent for his age. (He's only 4 or 5 I believe.)
These are some famous people with some form of Autism (Unspecified, Asperger syndrome, high-functioning autism, autistic savants, ect...) :
Ryan Joesph Wienen - my amazing boyfriend
Hans Christian Andersen – author
Lewis Carroll – writer, logician
Jeffrey Dahmer – serial killer
Emily Dickinson – poet
Albert Einstein – physicist
Thomas Jefferson – US President
Michelangelo – Italian Renaissance artist, based on his inability to form long-term attachments and certain other characteristics
Wolfgang Amadeus Mozart – composer
Isaac Newton
Nikola Tesla - Serbian inventor, and electrical and mechanical engineer
Andy Warhol – American artist
Daryl Hannah, an American actress best known for her roles in Splash, Blade Runner and Kill Bill was diagnosed as a child as being 'borderline autistic'
Christopher Knowles, American poet
Michael Moon, adopted son of author Elizabeth Moon
Jasmine O'Neill, author of Through the Eyes of Aliens
Birger Sellin, author from Germany
Robert Gagno, actor from Vancouver
Dan Aykroyd, comedian and actor: Aykroyd stated he has Asperger's, but some feel he was joking.
Richard Borcherds, mathematician specializing in group theory and Lie algebras
Craig Nicholls, frontman of the band The Vines
Gary Numan, British singer and songwriter
Dawn Prince-Hughes, PhD, primate anthropologist, ethologist, and author of Songs for the Gorilla Nation
Vernon L. Smith, Nobel Laureate in Economics
Satoshi Tajiri, creator of Pokémon
Liane Holliday Willey, author of Pretending to be Normal, Asperger Syndrome in the Family; Asperger syndrome advocate; education professor; and adult diagnosed with Asperger syndrome at age 35
Temple Grandin, a designer of humane food animal handling systems
Hikari Oe, Japanese composer
Bhumi Jensen, Thai prince, grandson of King Bhumibol Adulyadej of Thailand; killed by drowning in the tsunami caused by the 2004 Indian Ocean earthquake
Dylan Scott Pierce, wildlife illustrator
Jim Sinclair, autism rights activist
Axel Brauns, German author of the autobiographical bestseller Buntschatten und Fledermäuse and filmmaker
Alonzo Clemons, American clay sculptor
Tony DeBlois, blind American musician
Jonathan Lerman, American artist
Jerry Newport is an author, savant, and has Asperger's. His wife, Mary Newport, is also a savant on the autistic spectrum (basis of the film Mozart and the Whale)
Matt Savage, U.S. autistic jazz prodigy
Tito Mukhopadhyay, author, poet and philosopher
Heather Kuzmich, fashion model and reality show contestant on America's Next Top Model.
Peter Tork, American musician (The Monkees) and actor
Jonathan Jayne, contestant on American Idol
Fictional Characters With Autism:
Lou Arrendale and his associates from The Speed of Dark by Elizabeth Moon
Seth Garin in Stephen King's The Regulators is an 8-year-old boy with autism and mental powers that can be used for good or evil
Simon Lynch in Ryne Douglas Pearson's Simple Simon is a 16-year-old autistic boy whose mathematical abilities enable him to break a NSA security code and as a result must be protected from the government
Darryl McAllister from A Wizard Alone, part of Diane Duane's Young Wizards series. His autism gives him an unusual perspective of the world that in turn gives him unique abilities as a wizard
Arnie O'Connor from Dean Koontz's Frankenstein trilogy. Main character Carson O'Connor's autistic brother, unnaturally cognizant of the events of the books and the object of fellow autistic, albeit synthetic, character Randall Six's obsession to understand the secret of happiness
Raymond Babbitt (played by Dustin Hoffman) from the film Rain Man
Daniel Connelly (played by Harry Connick, Jr.) from the film P.S. I Love You
Linda Freeman (played by Sigourney Weaver) from the film Snow Cake
Eric Gibb (played by Jay Underwood) from the film The Boy Who Could Fly
Kazan (played by Andrew Miller) from the film Cube
Simon Lynch (played by Miko Hughes) from the film Mercury Rising
Donald Morton (Josh Hartnett) and Isabelle Sorenson (Radha Mitchell) in the film Mozart and the Whale
Arnie Grape (played by Leonardo DiCaprio) from the film What's Eating Gilbert Grape?
Max Horovitz (voice by Philip Seymour Hoffman) from the animation film Mary and Max
Nell Kellty (played by Jodie Foster) from the film Nell
Brady Hauser, Mark Hauser's brother, is an autistic savant who is enlisted by his brother to steal corporate security information in the 24 episode "8:00PM-9:00PM (24 season 6)"
In the House episode "Lines in the Sand" , which focuses on an autistic child named Adam, the team suspects that House may have low-level Asperger syndrome in order to explain his unwavering protests at having the carpet in his office changed. Dr. Wilson, however, asserts that House "wishes" he had Asperger syndrome so that he would have an excuse for his rudeness and dislike of people.
The third series of Skins features the character JJ Jones who is diagnosed with Asperger syndrome
On The Shield, Vic Mackey's son Matthew and daughter Megan both have been diagnosed with autism
On the American Daytime soap opera All My Children, the character of Lily Montgomery, played by Levin Ramblin, is diagnosed with Autism Spectrum Disorder
Conner, in the Canadian teen drama Degrassi: The Next Generation has Asperger syndrome
The boy who would become the DC Comics supervillain Black Manta was autistic
Jonny Do in Psi-Force was an autistic individual with pyrokinetic abilities
Tony Stark (Iron Man) is self-described as having Asperger syndrome
So many famous people have been diagnosed. It just proves that yeah, someone may be autistic, but that won't stop them from doing amazing things. I hope one day people will realize we don't need a cure to autism, we just need support. Please remember, just because some autistic people can't speak doesn't mean they don't have something to say. Let's help them talk. Let's help them use their own voice.
Thursday, September 17, 2009
What constitutes cheating? Going out with a friend of the opposite sex? Having sex? Holding hands? Going to a strip club and getting a lap dance? Personally I think it's subjective. Your beliefs define what cheating is. For me, cheating is:
Oral Sex
Sex
Hand Jobs
Making Out
(Pretty much anything of a severe sexual nature)
I don't consider going to a strip club cheating nor do I consider getting a lap dance cheating. Many people might. I think Ryan does. But you know what? It's just good clean fun...Well good fun...I'm not sure about the clean part. I guess I look at it like this...Would I feel guilty if I was doing the same thing?
You see Ryan went to a strip club last night with a friend. Said friend then paid for Ryan to have a lap dance. Now I was disappointed in Ryan but not for the reason people would think. I'm disappointed for 2 reasons. He didn't just enjoy himself and then tell me today. And he didn't wait so I could go too. ;) I could go to a strip club and not feel guilty. I might regret not taking Ryan with me but I wouldn't feel guilty because I went to a strip club or got a lap dance. It doesn't make me a bad person. It just means that I have a different standard than you do.
Other things:
Yesterday Ryan and I went to the reveal of the Extreme Makeover: Home Edition house. It was AWESOME! There were like at least 6,000 people there and we were all smooshed in but I got to spend the day with my baby and got to see Ty Pennington and Paul. It was amazing. He really isn't THAT loud in person by the way. Unfortunately, I got a really bad sunburn on my left arm, my back/neck, my face, and my right shoulder. I held and teased Ryan for most of the day. Afterwards we went to Lake Le-Aqua-Na because he's never been there before. I was so shocked. If you live in the north west you so have to go sometime. It's a beautiful place. So peaceful.
Some people have been asking me lately, why Ryan? They only see his faults and it's really pissing me off so I thought I would officially clear up, why Ryan. He calls me every night to say good night. He calls me just to tell me he loves me. He's not afraid to hold my hand in public and give me a kiss whenever I need it. He makes me laugh and smile. He holds me and kisses me all over. He listens and helps me through the pain. He's never been mean to me and he promises me he never will. He is my Prince Charming. My Cory. My Jasper. My yang. My everything. Got a problem with that? I don't need you in my life like I need him. I couldn't be any happier than I am when I'm in his arms. I love you doesn't even cover everything I feel for him. That's why Ryan.
Oral Sex
Sex
Hand Jobs
Making Out
(Pretty much anything of a severe sexual nature)
I don't consider going to a strip club cheating nor do I consider getting a lap dance cheating. Many people might. I think Ryan does. But you know what? It's just good clean fun...Well good fun...I'm not sure about the clean part. I guess I look at it like this...Would I feel guilty if I was doing the same thing?
You see Ryan went to a strip club last night with a friend. Said friend then paid for Ryan to have a lap dance. Now I was disappointed in Ryan but not for the reason people would think. I'm disappointed for 2 reasons. He didn't just enjoy himself and then tell me today. And he didn't wait so I could go too. ;) I could go to a strip club and not feel guilty. I might regret not taking Ryan with me but I wouldn't feel guilty because I went to a strip club or got a lap dance. It doesn't make me a bad person. It just means that I have a different standard than you do.
Other things:
Yesterday Ryan and I went to the reveal of the Extreme Makeover: Home Edition house. It was AWESOME! There were like at least 6,000 people there and we were all smooshed in but I got to spend the day with my baby and got to see Ty Pennington and Paul. It was amazing. He really isn't THAT loud in person by the way. Unfortunately, I got a really bad sunburn on my left arm, my back/neck, my face, and my right shoulder. I held and teased Ryan for most of the day. Afterwards we went to Lake Le-Aqua-Na because he's never been there before. I was so shocked. If you live in the north west you so have to go sometime. It's a beautiful place. So peaceful.
Some people have been asking me lately, why Ryan? They only see his faults and it's really pissing me off so I thought I would officially clear up, why Ryan. He calls me every night to say good night. He calls me just to tell me he loves me. He's not afraid to hold my hand in public and give me a kiss whenever I need it. He makes me laugh and smile. He holds me and kisses me all over. He listens and helps me through the pain. He's never been mean to me and he promises me he never will. He is my Prince Charming. My Cory. My Jasper. My yang. My everything. Got a problem with that? I don't need you in my life like I need him. I couldn't be any happier than I am when I'm in his arms. I love you doesn't even cover everything I feel for him. That's why Ryan.
Weapon of choice? The cheese grater!
I love my crazy, goofy, sometimes stupid, but oh so amazing boyfriend.
Monday, September 14, 2009
Austim Speaks Doesn't Speak For The Autistic.
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Wednesday, September 9, 2009
Happiness
Happiness. It's a subjective term. I have found my happiness. His name is Ryan. Ryan Wienen and no I still don't really know how to say his last name right. He's a great guy and oh so sweet. We've only been together I guess like a few days. But I already know just how to get him going. When we first started talking he promised me there was no way I would ever get him wrapped around my finger and that he was going to have me wrapped around his in no time. I guess he was wrong because I have him wrapped so tight around my finger right now I think I could ask him to do just about anything and he would.
We're going to a party Saturday and I'll admit, I'm a little nervous. Not because I'm seeing him but because I'm meeting his friends. We all know how influential friends can be. That and I think I'm also a little worried I might run into someone I know from my past. Because apparently he's friends with a lot of people I used to go to school with. Hell he works for Kevin's mum. I guess I'm also worried I won't live up to Ryan's expectations. But that's just me being me I guess.
Lately life's been pretty boring and yet still hectic. With the deaths, hospital visits, and sleepless nights, it's a wonder I'm still alive.
Logan's home now. She's like 8 pounds and doing really good. I wish I could see her but Jodi would have a fit if I did. Terry tells me all about Logan though. And Ariel has pictures I can see on her Facebook
Mum wants to see about doing another family poker night/cook out at Aunt Barb's. If Saturday goes well, she wants me to invite Ryan. I love Ryan but I don't know if he could survive such torture. Especially if like Dru comes over. Because that just wouldn't be fair to Ryan. You know...Dru and I should have a poker tournament to see who can win more. Since we're both such good card cheats it would be very interesting to see...There's a reason we're not aloud to deal.
Well I think I'm tired enough to try and go back to bed. I love Ryan and I can't wait for Saturday.
We're going to a party Saturday and I'll admit, I'm a little nervous. Not because I'm seeing him but because I'm meeting his friends. We all know how influential friends can be. That and I think I'm also a little worried I might run into someone I know from my past. Because apparently he's friends with a lot of people I used to go to school with. Hell he works for Kevin's mum. I guess I'm also worried I won't live up to Ryan's expectations. But that's just me being me I guess.
Lately life's been pretty boring and yet still hectic. With the deaths, hospital visits, and sleepless nights, it's a wonder I'm still alive.
Logan's home now. She's like 8 pounds and doing really good. I wish I could see her but Jodi would have a fit if I did. Terry tells me all about Logan though. And Ariel has pictures I can see on her Facebook
Mum wants to see about doing another family poker night/cook out at Aunt Barb's. If Saturday goes well, she wants me to invite Ryan. I love Ryan but I don't know if he could survive such torture. Especially if like Dru comes over. Because that just wouldn't be fair to Ryan. You know...Dru and I should have a poker tournament to see who can win more. Since we're both such good card cheats it would be very interesting to see...There's a reason we're not aloud to deal.
Well I think I'm tired enough to try and go back to bed. I love Ryan and I can't wait for Saturday.
Wednesday, August 26, 2009
Monday, August 24, 2009
Tuesday, August 18, 2009
The Twilight Saga: New Moon
As November 20th draws ever closer, we see more and more news on the release of The Twilight Saga: New Moon. Today we saw the release of the latest New Moon trailer/featurette called Meet Jacob Black. We got to see more of the wolf pack and Jacob of course along with a quickie lookie at Jane and Volterra. I for one can't wait to see the direction Chris Weitz takes this movie. Now I'll admit, I have read the script that leaked in like May and I loved it. This is going to be a fantastic movie.
I, like a lot of people, was worried about such a huge name like Dakota Fanning playing Jane. But she looks like shes going to be perfect for the role. Tinsel Korey is going to make a beautiful Emily but I am curious to see how they'll do her severe scaring. Cameron Bright is going to make a cold and scary Alec. I can see it already.
I love the idea of Jamie Campbell Bower as Caius. He was so amazingly awesome in Sweeney Todd! He will also be in the upcoming Harry Potter And The Deathly Hollows Pt. 1 & 2. Anyone else see a theme of Potter stars and Twilight stars intermingling? So many movies cross over no a days. I think it's kind of funny to be honest with you. It takes 6 degrees of separation to a whole new level in my opinion.
(Keep a look out for a Harry Potter blog in the near future...)
I, like a lot of people, was worried about such a huge name like Dakota Fanning playing Jane. But she looks like shes going to be perfect for the role. Tinsel Korey is going to make a beautiful Emily but I am curious to see how they'll do her severe scaring. Cameron Bright is going to make a cold and scary Alec. I can see it already.
I love the idea of Jamie Campbell Bower as Caius. He was so amazingly awesome in Sweeney Todd! He will also be in the upcoming Harry Potter And The Deathly Hollows Pt. 1 & 2. Anyone else see a theme of Potter stars and Twilight stars intermingling? So many movies cross over no a days. I think it's kind of funny to be honest with you. It takes 6 degrees of separation to a whole new level in my opinion.
(Keep a look out for a Harry Potter blog in the near future...)
Monday, August 17, 2009
Blah
Expectations. Every one has them. Lately, people have been expecting to much out of my writing. Sure I have a good day here and there but come on! These stories don't just *happen*! They take inspiration, perspiration, and usually cause a lot of frustration. I feel bad because I'm not like other writers, I can't produce a 3 page story at the drop of a hat and expect it to be worth anything. And the writers that can pop out a 3 page story in an hour, they usually don't care about quality, only quantity.
Fuzz's birthday is in 2 days. In fact, today is his mum's birthday. It's kind of funny when you think about it. My father and I have 2 days between our birthday's, just like Fuzz and his mum. Fuzz and I seem to have quiet a bit in common. It makes things easier when your best friend and yourself have at least a few things in common. I can't wait to give him his present. It'll be a little late though. But aren't I always?
Joining the Church Choir might have been a mistake. Every time I walk into a church, I get this strong urge to sin. I don't know what it is about a church but it's just like, a big turn on I guess. Maybe it's just me but I don't think so. This girl I go to church with...I swear she's trying to get into the pastors pants. She wears less and less every time I go to church and she's always helping him and shit. It's kind of funny to be honest. One of these days, she's just going to like rape him and call it a day.
They have hired a writer for SpiderMan 5 and 6 with 4 looking to be released circa May 2010. It's getting over done.......
Well that's all I can really think of to say this time around. I'll write another blog, probably on Thursday of David's reaction to his present. We shall see...
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Now playing: Bomshel - Fight Like A Girl
via FoxyTunes
Fuzz's birthday is in 2 days. In fact, today is his mum's birthday. It's kind of funny when you think about it. My father and I have 2 days between our birthday's, just like Fuzz and his mum. Fuzz and I seem to have quiet a bit in common. It makes things easier when your best friend and yourself have at least a few things in common. I can't wait to give him his present. It'll be a little late though. But aren't I always?
Joining the Church Choir might have been a mistake. Every time I walk into a church, I get this strong urge to sin. I don't know what it is about a church but it's just like, a big turn on I guess. Maybe it's just me but I don't think so. This girl I go to church with...I swear she's trying to get into the pastors pants. She wears less and less every time I go to church and she's always helping him and shit. It's kind of funny to be honest. One of these days, she's just going to like rape him and call it a day.
They have hired a writer for SpiderMan 5 and 6 with 4 looking to be released circa May 2010. It's getting over done.......
Well that's all I can really think of to say this time around. I'll write another blog, probably on Thursday of David's reaction to his present. We shall see...
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Now playing: Bomshel - Fight Like A Girl
via FoxyTunes
Wednesday, August 12, 2009
You might be from a small town if...
You might be from a small town if...
1. You can name everyone you graduated with. (I think I can name like 25 out of 30 people)
2. You know several people who have hit a deer. (I even know one who did it on purpose)
3. You know what 4-H and FFA is. (Of course I do. Duh)
4. You ever went to a party that was held about 20 miles down a deserted dirt road near the woods. (In Jake's field. Assholes kept me up)
5. Being able to hit a road sign with a beer bottle while driving down the highway is considered a necessary skill. (I bet I could do it if I were ever dumb enough to drink and drive)
6. You used to drag "main." (Haha, yeah...)
7. A "lap? only takes 10 minutes. (I bet I could make it in 7)
8. You know what's knee-high by the Fourth of July. (The corn :-P)
9. You said the 'F' word and your parents knew within an hour. (Not that they cared)
10. Driving to the party on a four-wheeler is quite normal. (Course it is. No better way to travel when you ain't got a license)
11. You thought the 30-year-old guy that still was at all the parties was cool. (Sure...let's go with that)
12. The town population increases by one-third when the universities go on break. (Every time)
13. You schedule parties around the schedule of different police officers since you know which ones would bust you. (Ehh, none of them would bust any of us)
14. You live for summer, when street fairs signal the beginning of funnel cake season. (Mmm funnel cake...)
15. You know what "cow tipping" and "snipe hunting" is. (Sure. Won't do either but I know what they are)
16. You see a car running in the parking lot at the store with no one in it no matter what time of the year (Defiantly)
17. You've never met any celebrities, but the mayor knows your name. (The mayor of Mt. Carroll does)
18. You install security lights on your house and garage but leave all the doors unlocked. (Why yes, yes we did)
19. When you found someone old enough to buy smokes for you, you had to drive down country roads to smoke them. (Don't smoke)
20. Running from the cops consists of hiding in the cornfield or swimming across the river. (Cept for when the idiot started the cornfield on fire. Kinda hard to hide then)
21. You have to name six surrounding towns to explain to people where you're from. (Savanna, Freeport, Rockford, Warren, Mt. Carroll, Lena...now do you get where I am??)
22. You often switch from "Heat" to "A/C" in the same day. (Sometimes)
23. You still go home for Homecoming. (Nah...I go to Pearl City for homecoming)
24. It was cool to date someone from a neighboring town. (Still is)
25. You had a senior skip day. (They did)
26. The whole school went to the same party after graduation. (Hell no, they would kill each other)
27. All the festivals across the state are named after a fruit, vegetable, grain, plant, or animal. (Probably)
28. You can't help but date a friend's ex. (It was either that or forget about dating all together)
29. The first day of shotgun season is a school holiday. (Yes it is. We have a teachers institute on that day for a reason)
30. Your car is always filthy from the country roads. (Always)
31. A cool vehicle had big tires or a bad-ass stereo. (Or could go from 0-60 in under 20 seconds while hauling a trailer)
32. The town next to you is considered "trashy" or "snotty" when it is just like your town. (Still do)
33. You leave your jacket on the back of the chair in the cafe, and when you go back the next day, it's still there, on the same chair. (Umm yeah at Rita's)
34. You refer to anyone with a house newer than 1980 as the "rich people." (Sure they are)
35. There's a tornado warning and the whole town is outside watching for it. (I've actually seen this)
36. You don't signal turns because everyone knows where you're going, anyway. (Well yeah, unless they mistake me for Abby)
37. Using the elevator involves a grain truck. (It's fun to ride that one)
38. You bragged to your friends because you got pipes on your truck for your birthday. (Nope)
39. You know which leaves make good toilet paper or you are “road broke.? (Yes I am road broke and yes I know the best leaves)
40. Weekend excitement involves a trip to somewhere farther than an hour away from home. (Sad but true)
41. Your idea of a traffic jam is ten cars waiting to pass a tractor on the highway. (Every fucking harvest)
42. You decide to walk for exercise and five people pull over and ask you if you need a ride. (If not more)
43. Your teachers call you by your older sibling's name or remember when they taught your parents. (All my old teachers either remembered teaching my parents or...dating my parents)
44. You are related to more than half of the town. (About 2/3 actually)
45. You listen to "Paul Harvey" every morning or at noon. (Sometimes but not often anymore)
46. You get married, hit a home run/make a touchdown, or have a traffic accident and the local newspaper devotes a quarter page to the story. (Haha, no comment)
47. You measure distance in minutes. (It takes 15 minutes to get to any of the surrounding towns from my house and 3o minutes to get to the big city of Freeport)
48. You hang out at Wal-Mart. (Wally World's cool man)
49. Everyone knows all the news before it's published; they just read the hometown paper to see whether the publisher got it right. (Pretty much. I stopped reading the paper when I realized the editor never got it right)
50. You actually get these jokes and pass them on to other friends (Well I'm sending it on to you, my readers.)
Now you see, I really am from a small town. Populations <3,000. Actually I just looked it up on Wikipedia. The population as of the 2000 census was 1,926 so <2,000. And I doubt it's grown much since then.
1. You can name everyone you graduated with. (I think I can name like 25 out of 30 people)
2. You know several people who have hit a deer. (I even know one who did it on purpose)
3. You know what 4-H and FFA is. (Of course I do. Duh)
4. You ever went to a party that was held about 20 miles down a deserted dirt road near the woods. (In Jake's field. Assholes kept me up)
5. Being able to hit a road sign with a beer bottle while driving down the highway is considered a necessary skill. (I bet I could do it if I were ever dumb enough to drink and drive)
6. You used to drag "main." (Haha, yeah...)
7. A "lap? only takes 10 minutes. (I bet I could make it in 7)
8. You know what's knee-high by the Fourth of July. (The corn :-P)
9. You said the 'F' word and your parents knew within an hour. (Not that they cared)
10. Driving to the party on a four-wheeler is quite normal. (Course it is. No better way to travel when you ain't got a license)
11. You thought the 30-year-old guy that still was at all the parties was cool. (Sure...let's go with that)
12. The town population increases by one-third when the universities go on break. (Every time)
13. You schedule parties around the schedule of different police officers since you know which ones would bust you. (Ehh, none of them would bust any of us)
14. You live for summer, when street fairs signal the beginning of funnel cake season. (Mmm funnel cake...)
15. You know what "cow tipping" and "snipe hunting" is. (Sure. Won't do either but I know what they are)
16. You see a car running in the parking lot at the store with no one in it no matter what time of the year (Defiantly)
17. You've never met any celebrities, but the mayor knows your name. (The mayor of Mt. Carroll does)
18. You install security lights on your house and garage but leave all the doors unlocked. (Why yes, yes we did)
19. When you found someone old enough to buy smokes for you, you had to drive down country roads to smoke them. (Don't smoke)
20. Running from the cops consists of hiding in the cornfield or swimming across the river. (Cept for when the idiot started the cornfield on fire. Kinda hard to hide then)
21. You have to name six surrounding towns to explain to people where you're from. (Savanna, Freeport, Rockford, Warren, Mt. Carroll, Lena...now do you get where I am??)
22. You often switch from "Heat" to "A/C" in the same day. (Sometimes)
23. You still go home for Homecoming. (Nah...I go to Pearl City for homecoming)
24. It was cool to date someone from a neighboring town. (Still is)
25. You had a senior skip day. (They did)
26. The whole school went to the same party after graduation. (Hell no, they would kill each other)
27. All the festivals across the state are named after a fruit, vegetable, grain, plant, or animal. (Probably)
28. You can't help but date a friend's ex. (It was either that or forget about dating all together)
29. The first day of shotgun season is a school holiday. (Yes it is. We have a teachers institute on that day for a reason)
30. Your car is always filthy from the country roads. (Always)
31. A cool vehicle had big tires or a bad-ass stereo. (Or could go from 0-60 in under 20 seconds while hauling a trailer)
32. The town next to you is considered "trashy" or "snotty" when it is just like your town. (Still do)
33. You leave your jacket on the back of the chair in the cafe, and when you go back the next day, it's still there, on the same chair. (Umm yeah at Rita's)
34. You refer to anyone with a house newer than 1980 as the "rich people." (Sure they are)
35. There's a tornado warning and the whole town is outside watching for it. (I've actually seen this)
36. You don't signal turns because everyone knows where you're going, anyway. (Well yeah, unless they mistake me for Abby)
37. Using the elevator involves a grain truck. (It's fun to ride that one)
38. You bragged to your friends because you got pipes on your truck for your birthday. (Nope)
39. You know which leaves make good toilet paper or you are “road broke.? (Yes I am road broke and yes I know the best leaves)
40. Weekend excitement involves a trip to somewhere farther than an hour away from home. (Sad but true)
41. Your idea of a traffic jam is ten cars waiting to pass a tractor on the highway. (Every fucking harvest)
42. You decide to walk for exercise and five people pull over and ask you if you need a ride. (If not more)
43. Your teachers call you by your older sibling's name or remember when they taught your parents. (All my old teachers either remembered teaching my parents or...dating my parents)
44. You are related to more than half of the town. (About 2/3 actually)
45. You listen to "Paul Harvey" every morning or at noon. (Sometimes but not often anymore)
46. You get married, hit a home run/make a touchdown, or have a traffic accident and the local newspaper devotes a quarter page to the story. (Haha, no comment)
47. You measure distance in minutes. (It takes 15 minutes to get to any of the surrounding towns from my house and 3o minutes to get to the big city of Freeport)
48. You hang out at Wal-Mart. (Wally World's cool man)
49. Everyone knows all the news before it's published; they just read the hometown paper to see whether the publisher got it right. (Pretty much. I stopped reading the paper when I realized the editor never got it right)
50. You actually get these jokes and pass them on to other friends (Well I'm sending it on to you, my readers.)
Now you see, I really am from a small town. Populations <3,000. Actually I just looked it up on Wikipedia. The population as of the 2000 census was 1,926 so <2,000. And I doubt it's grown much since then.
Sunday, August 9, 2009
Breaking Up Is Hard To Do
“Tyler? Can we talk?” I asked quietly.
Tyler looked up from his English paper, his dark brown eyes piercing into my pale grey ones.
“What would you like to talk about?” Tyler questioned, his jet black curls bouncing with each move of his head. The curls made him look far more innocent and boyish than he truly was.
“Tyler…I don’t…I don’t love you anymore,” I whispered backing quickly towards the front door. I knew there was a good chance Tyler’s temper would flare once again and I would need to make a hasty exit. I owed most of my bruises and broken bones to him after all.
“What did you say?” Tyler asked in a scary calm voice.
“I said…I don’t love you anymore…I want to break up with you,” I told him once again, making sure to annunciate the words so he wouldn’t be confused.
“Lydia,” he said my name with furry, making me shake a little as I quickened my pace towards the door. “You fucking slut. IS THERE ANOTHER MAN?”
“No!” I screamed before turning heel and running full out towards the door. I managed to get out the door before Tyler could really register what was happening. I knew I should have broken up with him in public but I didn’t want innocent bystanders in harms way.
“I’M GOING TO KILL YOU LYDIA!” Tyler shouted behind me. I felt the fear rising within me. I knew first hand how easily Tyler could snap my bones.
“Stop it Tyler!” I screamed as a glass vase whizzed past my head and shattered against the wall. Shards flew at me as I ran past, cutting up my exposed flesh. I felt the blood dribbling down and the tears started falling.
I was running towards the stairs but I could sense and hear Tyler drawing closer.
My heart was beating out of my chest and I was having trouble breathing but I knew all I had to do was make it outside. Outside where most of the town was gathered for the street fair. Outside where I could find protection.
Another glass object flew by my head, closer this time. I didn’t know where he was getting his ammunition from, nor did I truly care. The latest projectile caused more blood to flow from my body, covering my face and arms.
I finally reached the stairs and prayed for a silent miracle. I knew there was a good chance I would slip and fall, giving Tyler just the edge he needed to catch me…and kill me.
“You might as well give up now Lydia. When I catch you, I’m going to turn your pretty little face into ground beef. No one leaves me Lydia. NO ONE!” Tyler called out as I took the stairs 4...5...6 at a time.
Tyler lived on the 13th floor. It was a long ways down. Unlucky number 13. His apartment just had to be on the top floor. The Lyrica apartment complex was one with a dark past. When Charles Lyrica built this place for his wife, he made sure it was the tallest building in town and it still is. He also went mad and killed his wife in their apartment. This is a building filled with rage.
12 people have died in the Lyrica apartments. Would I be number 13? Would I be the next victim of the Lyrica curse?
“Please Tyler, just stop!” I begged, sobbing as I pushed myself to go faster. I pushed my body harder and prayed for the strength to make it to the bottom.
By the 7th floor I was beginning to feel a little better as Tyler fell behind but I didn’t stop pushing. I knew he could get his second wind at any moment and I was getting so close.
6 more floors…5 more…4...3...2...As I hit the top of the 1st floor I could sense he was gaining again. Getting closer and closer with each step as my body slowed. The harder I pushed, the more resistance I met.
The bottom. I’d finally reached the bottom. I wanted to cheer but I couldn’t. not quiet yet. I still had to get out the front door on the other side of the building.
I was panting and feeling dizzy. The blood was dripping from my fingertips, leaving a sticky trail of pain in my wake.
I didn’t hear him as he got closer to me. His footsteps muffled by the heavy carpet. But I felt it when he tackled me, my arm breaking as we hit the ground.
I screamed bloody murder and struggled against him with all my might. I managed to roll over under him onto my back as his long slender fingers pressed into my neck, making it hard to breath.
While the world faded in front of me I heard a man shouting, his voice deeper than Tyler’s.
The last thing I could remember before the entire world went black was this feeling of a huge weight being lifted off my chest and I felt at peace.
I felt my eyes flutter open and saw white. At least I ended up in heaven. But I must admit this isn’t how I’d pictured it. I couldn’t move. I felt as though I was made of brick. And there was this annoying beeping. Hell then. I ended up in hell.
The voice told me the truth though as his face swam into view, “Miss, your in the hospital. A man was trying to kill you. Do you remember anything?”
My voice shook and cracked as I spoke, “I’m Lydia. The man was…Tyler. My ex. I broke up with him and he tried killing me. Can I please have some water?”
The man gave me some water to sip and my throat felt instantly better.
“What happened to Tyler? Is he…dead?” I asked tentatively.
“Yes. I killed him in self-defense. I’ll get the nurse. You probably could use some pain medication. You have a lot of broken bones,” the kind man said before turning to leave.
“Wait,” I called out. “Don’t I get to know my rescuers name?”
“It’s Logan ma’am,” he said, smiling down at me.
Tyler looked up from his English paper, his dark brown eyes piercing into my pale grey ones.
“What would you like to talk about?” Tyler questioned, his jet black curls bouncing with each move of his head. The curls made him look far more innocent and boyish than he truly was.
“Tyler…I don’t…I don’t love you anymore,” I whispered backing quickly towards the front door. I knew there was a good chance Tyler’s temper would flare once again and I would need to make a hasty exit. I owed most of my bruises and broken bones to him after all.
“What did you say?” Tyler asked in a scary calm voice.
“I said…I don’t love you anymore…I want to break up with you,” I told him once again, making sure to annunciate the words so he wouldn’t be confused.
“Lydia,” he said my name with furry, making me shake a little as I quickened my pace towards the door. “You fucking slut. IS THERE ANOTHER MAN?”
“No!” I screamed before turning heel and running full out towards the door. I managed to get out the door before Tyler could really register what was happening. I knew I should have broken up with him in public but I didn’t want innocent bystanders in harms way.
“I’M GOING TO KILL YOU LYDIA!” Tyler shouted behind me. I felt the fear rising within me. I knew first hand how easily Tyler could snap my bones.
“Stop it Tyler!” I screamed as a glass vase whizzed past my head and shattered against the wall. Shards flew at me as I ran past, cutting up my exposed flesh. I felt the blood dribbling down and the tears started falling.
I was running towards the stairs but I could sense and hear Tyler drawing closer.
My heart was beating out of my chest and I was having trouble breathing but I knew all I had to do was make it outside. Outside where most of the town was gathered for the street fair. Outside where I could find protection.
Another glass object flew by my head, closer this time. I didn’t know where he was getting his ammunition from, nor did I truly care. The latest projectile caused more blood to flow from my body, covering my face and arms.
I finally reached the stairs and prayed for a silent miracle. I knew there was a good chance I would slip and fall, giving Tyler just the edge he needed to catch me…and kill me.
“You might as well give up now Lydia. When I catch you, I’m going to turn your pretty little face into ground beef. No one leaves me Lydia. NO ONE!” Tyler called out as I took the stairs 4...5...6 at a time.
Tyler lived on the 13th floor. It was a long ways down. Unlucky number 13. His apartment just had to be on the top floor. The Lyrica apartment complex was one with a dark past. When Charles Lyrica built this place for his wife, he made sure it was the tallest building in town and it still is. He also went mad and killed his wife in their apartment. This is a building filled with rage.
12 people have died in the Lyrica apartments. Would I be number 13? Would I be the next victim of the Lyrica curse?
“Please Tyler, just stop!” I begged, sobbing as I pushed myself to go faster. I pushed my body harder and prayed for the strength to make it to the bottom.
By the 7th floor I was beginning to feel a little better as Tyler fell behind but I didn’t stop pushing. I knew he could get his second wind at any moment and I was getting so close.
6 more floors…5 more…4...3...2...As I hit the top of the 1st floor I could sense he was gaining again. Getting closer and closer with each step as my body slowed. The harder I pushed, the more resistance I met.
The bottom. I’d finally reached the bottom. I wanted to cheer but I couldn’t. not quiet yet. I still had to get out the front door on the other side of the building.
I was panting and feeling dizzy. The blood was dripping from my fingertips, leaving a sticky trail of pain in my wake.
I didn’t hear him as he got closer to me. His footsteps muffled by the heavy carpet. But I felt it when he tackled me, my arm breaking as we hit the ground.
I screamed bloody murder and struggled against him with all my might. I managed to roll over under him onto my back as his long slender fingers pressed into my neck, making it hard to breath.
While the world faded in front of me I heard a man shouting, his voice deeper than Tyler’s.
The last thing I could remember before the entire world went black was this feeling of a huge weight being lifted off my chest and I felt at peace.
I felt my eyes flutter open and saw white. At least I ended up in heaven. But I must admit this isn’t how I’d pictured it. I couldn’t move. I felt as though I was made of brick. And there was this annoying beeping. Hell then. I ended up in hell.
The voice told me the truth though as his face swam into view, “Miss, your in the hospital. A man was trying to kill you. Do you remember anything?”
My voice shook and cracked as I spoke, “I’m Lydia. The man was…Tyler. My ex. I broke up with him and he tried killing me. Can I please have some water?”
The man gave me some water to sip and my throat felt instantly better.
“What happened to Tyler? Is he…dead?” I asked tentatively.
“Yes. I killed him in self-defense. I’ll get the nurse. You probably could use some pain medication. You have a lot of broken bones,” the kind man said before turning to leave.
“Wait,” I called out. “Don’t I get to know my rescuers name?”
“It’s Logan ma’am,” he said, smiling down at me.
One Fine Day In The Middle Of The Night
Ladies and gentlemen
I stand before you to stand behind you,
To tell you something that I know absolutely nothing about.
This Thursday which is Good Friday,
We're having a mothers day picnic for fathers only.
Admission is free pay at the door,
Pull up a chair and sit on the floor.
One fine day in the middle of the night,
Two dead boys got up to fight.
Back to back they faced each other,
Pulled their swords and shot each other,
The deaf policeman heard the noise
And shot again the twice dead boys,
If you don't believe this lie is true at all
Ask the blind man he saw it all
Through the wooden brick wall.
I stand before you to stand behind you,
To tell you something that I know absolutely nothing about.
This Thursday which is Good Friday,
We're having a mothers day picnic for fathers only.
Admission is free pay at the door,
Pull up a chair and sit on the floor.
One fine day in the middle of the night,
Two dead boys got up to fight.
Back to back they faced each other,
Pulled their swords and shot each other,
The deaf policeman heard the noise
And shot again the twice dead boys,
If you don't believe this lie is true at all
Ask the blind man he saw it all
Through the wooden brick wall.
One Fine Day In The Middle Of The Night
Ladies and gentlemen
I stand before you to stand behind you,
To tell you something that I know absolutely nothing about.
This Thursday which is Good Friday,
We're having a mothers day picnic for fathers only.
Admission is free pay at the door,
Pull up a chair and sit on the floor.
One fine day in the middle of the night,
Two dead boys got up to fight.
Back to back they faced each other,
Pulled their swords and shot each other,
The deaf policeman heard the noise
And shot again the twice dead boys,
If you don't believe this lie is true at all
Ask the blind man he saw it all
Through the wooden brick wall.
I stand before you to stand behind you,
To tell you something that I know absolutely nothing about.
This Thursday which is Good Friday,
We're having a mothers day picnic for fathers only.
Admission is free pay at the door,
Pull up a chair and sit on the floor.
One fine day in the middle of the night,
Two dead boys got up to fight.
Back to back they faced each other,
Pulled their swords and shot each other,
The deaf policeman heard the noise
And shot again the twice dead boys,
If you don't believe this lie is true at all
Ask the blind man he saw it all
Through the wooden brick wall.
Autism
Most women become mothers by accident, some by choice, a few by social pressures and a couple by habit. Did you ever wonder how mothers of children with autism are chosen? Somehow I visualize God hovering over earth selecting his instruments for propagation with great care and deliberation. As he observes, he instructs his angels to make notes in a giant ledger.
"Armstrong, Beth, son. Patron Saint Matthew."
"Forrest, Marjorie, daughter, Patron Saint Cecilia."
"Rutledge, Carrie, twins. Patron Saint Gerard. He's used to profanity."
Finally, He passes a name to an angel, Taylor, Julie, son. God smiles, "Give her a child with autism." The angel is curious. "Why this one, God? She's so happy."
"Exactly", smiles God. "Could I give a child with autism to a mother who does not know laughter? That would be cruel".
"But has she the patience?" asks the angel.
"I don't want her to have too much patience, or she will drown in a sea of self-pity and despair. Once the shock and resentment wear off, she'll handle it. I watched her today. She has that feeling of self and independence that is so rare and so necessary in a mother. You see, the child I am going to give her has his own world. She has to make him live in her world and that's not going to be easy."
"But, Lord, I don't know if she even believes in you."
God smiles. "No matter. I can fix that. This one is perfect. She has just enough selfishness."
The angel gasps. "Selfishness? Is that a virtue?"
God nods. "If she cannot separate herself from the child occasionally, she will never survive. Yes, here is a woman whom I will bless with less than perfect."
"She does not realize it yet, but she is to be envied. I will permit her to see clearly the things I see .... ignorance, cruelty, prejudice ... and allow her to rise above them. She will never be alone. I will be at her side every minute of every day of her life because she is doing my work as surely as if she is here by my side."
"And what about her patron saint?" asks the angel, his pen poised in mid air. God smiles. "A mirror will suffice."
"Armstrong, Beth, son. Patron Saint Matthew."
"Forrest, Marjorie, daughter, Patron Saint Cecilia."
"Rutledge, Carrie, twins. Patron Saint Gerard. He's used to profanity."
Finally, He passes a name to an angel, Taylor, Julie, son. God smiles, "Give her a child with autism." The angel is curious. "Why this one, God? She's so happy."
"Exactly", smiles God. "Could I give a child with autism to a mother who does not know laughter? That would be cruel".
"But has she the patience?" asks the angel.
"I don't want her to have too much patience, or she will drown in a sea of self-pity and despair. Once the shock and resentment wear off, she'll handle it. I watched her today. She has that feeling of self and independence that is so rare and so necessary in a mother. You see, the child I am going to give her has his own world. She has to make him live in her world and that's not going to be easy."
"But, Lord, I don't know if she even believes in you."
God smiles. "No matter. I can fix that. This one is perfect. She has just enough selfishness."
The angel gasps. "Selfishness? Is that a virtue?"
God nods. "If she cannot separate herself from the child occasionally, she will never survive. Yes, here is a woman whom I will bless with less than perfect."
"She does not realize it yet, but she is to be envied. I will permit her to see clearly the things I see .... ignorance, cruelty, prejudice ... and allow her to rise above them. She will never be alone. I will be at her side every minute of every day of her life because she is doing my work as surely as if she is here by my side."
"And what about her patron saint?" asks the angel, his pen poised in mid air. God smiles. "A mirror will suffice."
Friday, August 7, 2009
A little more vacation news.
Well boys and girls, I'm finally home. It feels good to be back in my own house and my own bed. But a part of me aches for my dads house and the...normalcy...of his house. Up in the mornings watching Josie. Chilling in the evenings with dad. Monday through Thursday was fairly boring. Not a whole lot to say about that. I watched Rose Red on Tuesday which is a spectacular movie and I watched 5 People You Meet In Heaven on Thursday before coming home. I must say that was one of the best movie's ever and it truly made me stop and think for a long while. A must watch for people like me.
We went out to eat a lot while I was up there. The food was amazing. The people were really nice. And having the heart-to-hearts with my dad was amazing.
My dad told me when I was 13 he thought about suing for full custody. I kind of wish he had sometimes because I think life would have been easier with him. I don't think I would be as skittish and everything.
I can't really say much more right now. I'll be volunteering all weekend. Come up to Willow and find me. Love y'all.
We went out to eat a lot while I was up there. The food was amazing. The people were really nice. And having the heart-to-hearts with my dad was amazing.
My dad told me when I was 13 he thought about suing for full custody. I kind of wish he had sometimes because I think life would have been easier with him. I don't think I would be as skittish and everything.
I can't really say much more right now. I'll be volunteering all weekend. Come up to Willow and find me. Love y'all.
Monday, August 3, 2009
Vacation (Friday through early Monday)
So today is my 4th official day on vacation. Today both dad and Annie are working so I'm here with Josie. She's still in bed and my fruit loops are getting soggy but I thought I would update y'all on whats going on. So Friday I arrived around 1 am and we got home around 2. Needless to say we all went straight to bed since dad had to be to work Friday at like 6. Then when Annie, Josie, and I all woke up, we went out for breakfast at a place called The Golden Flame. The food was good (I had an omlette) but I was so nervous I couldn't really enjoy it. I mean I know Annie doesn't bite but come on, this is my dad's girlfriend we're talking about. That's fucking intimidating. She knows my dad more than I do. But even though I was quiet we had a good time.
Next Annie drove me around town as we went to her mums. I got to see the Budweiser factory, the Lake, my dad's office, Annie's office, the Submarine, the lighthouse, the beach, the pier, downtown, the testing ground for the cranes my dads company builds, and finally the town of Twin Rivers. It was all very exciting.
I have meet (so far) Annie's parents, both of Annie's sisters, dad and Annie's friends Michelle and some others that were at Josie's birthday party, Josie's friends Allie, Ashley, Akiea, Adrianna, Brianna, and some others that were at the birthday party, the next door neighbors, like 5 Roberts, Peanut (Larry), and Pookie (Another Robert), and so many more. My favorite one so far was definiatly Pookie or as I call him Bobby. He was fucking hilarious and damn cute. If I see him again, I'll get a picture. Maybe.
Saturday was Josie's birthday party. We went to the Holiday Inn and had a pool party. Everyone had a lot of fun and I got to swim! (Annie was nice enough to loan me a swimsuit) We had sloppy joes and hotdogs and chips and dip and cake. It was really cool. Everyone was really nice and gave me my space. I suspect Annie told them of my people issues. However, I did get to know little Ashley well. She's like me and not really a "people" person. Though it's more the girls faults than hers. They're not very inclusive.
Sunday had to have been the best day of my vacation yet. Dad knows I'm a lot like him and love to learn and discover new things so they took me to The National Train Museum and then to the Bay Beach Wildlife Preserve. I took over 400 pictures of the trains, the animals, and everything in between. I even got a couple of Annie, Josie, and my dad. And of course Annie insisted on getting a few of me and my dad. And of fucking course dad insisted on snapping quiet a few of me when I wasn't looking. Evil old fart. I got to see a snowy owl and feed the ducks and geese. Then we went to Hu-Hots for lunch. It's this excellent mongolian restraunt. http://www.huhot.com/ You have to see for yourself just how awesome it is.
Another place we ate at was Friar Tucks on Friday. Lunch with my dad, Annie, and Josie. Friar Tucks is a very unique resturant/bar. It had a very realistic feel from the very dim lights too all the waiters in little friar's outfits. If you've ever seen Romeo and Juliet you know what I'm talking about.
My dad and I have been working hard on warming up to each other but it's not easy. You have to remember, this is the longest we've ever spent together in my 18 years of life. We've actually had a couple heart-to-hearts where I learned why he and Bethy split, why he hates my mum, and some of the reckless shit he did when he was my age. I see now why he doesn't judge me for my mistakes because he's made the same.
Well that's all I really have to say for the first few days. I don't know what's going on the rest of the week but I'll try to update again before I leave. If not, you know y'all will get it all when I get back on Saturday.
I love and miss y'all. Hope all is well with everyone and everyone is staying out of trouble.
~Ashley Nicole
Next Annie drove me around town as we went to her mums. I got to see the Budweiser factory, the Lake, my dad's office, Annie's office, the Submarine, the lighthouse, the beach, the pier, downtown, the testing ground for the cranes my dads company builds, and finally the town of Twin Rivers. It was all very exciting.
I have meet (so far) Annie's parents, both of Annie's sisters, dad and Annie's friends Michelle and some others that were at Josie's birthday party, Josie's friends Allie, Ashley, Akiea, Adrianna, Brianna, and some others that were at the birthday party, the next door neighbors, like 5 Roberts, Peanut (Larry), and Pookie (Another Robert), and so many more. My favorite one so far was definiatly Pookie or as I call him Bobby. He was fucking hilarious and damn cute. If I see him again, I'll get a picture. Maybe.
Saturday was Josie's birthday party. We went to the Holiday Inn and had a pool party. Everyone had a lot of fun and I got to swim! (Annie was nice enough to loan me a swimsuit) We had sloppy joes and hotdogs and chips and dip and cake. It was really cool. Everyone was really nice and gave me my space. I suspect Annie told them of my people issues. However, I did get to know little Ashley well. She's like me and not really a "people" person. Though it's more the girls faults than hers. They're not very inclusive.
Sunday had to have been the best day of my vacation yet. Dad knows I'm a lot like him and love to learn and discover new things so they took me to The National Train Museum and then to the Bay Beach Wildlife Preserve. I took over 400 pictures of the trains, the animals, and everything in between. I even got a couple of Annie, Josie, and my dad. And of course Annie insisted on getting a few of me and my dad. And of fucking course dad insisted on snapping quiet a few of me when I wasn't looking. Evil old fart. I got to see a snowy owl and feed the ducks and geese. Then we went to Hu-Hots for lunch. It's this excellent mongolian restraunt. http://www.huhot.com/ You have to see for yourself just how awesome it is.
Another place we ate at was Friar Tucks on Friday. Lunch with my dad, Annie, and Josie. Friar Tucks is a very unique resturant/bar. It had a very realistic feel from the very dim lights too all the waiters in little friar's outfits. If you've ever seen Romeo and Juliet you know what I'm talking about.
My dad and I have been working hard on warming up to each other but it's not easy. You have to remember, this is the longest we've ever spent together in my 18 years of life. We've actually had a couple heart-to-hearts where I learned why he and Bethy split, why he hates my mum, and some of the reckless shit he did when he was my age. I see now why he doesn't judge me for my mistakes because he's made the same.
Well that's all I really have to say for the first few days. I don't know what's going on the rest of the week but I'll try to update again before I leave. If not, you know y'all will get it all when I get back on Saturday.
I love and miss y'all. Hope all is well with everyone and everyone is staying out of trouble.
~Ashley Nicole
Wednesday, July 29, 2009
Anger
I hate my camera batteries. They're rechargeable but they don't hold their charge. It really pisses me off. Grrr. FUCK MY LIFE!
A Day To Remember
Fuzz went to an A Day To Remember show at Club Hollywood in Augusta, GA. I have been listening to ADTR more lately. I must admit, I'm a little jealous he got to go but then again, he lives close enough to go. I don't. Y'all need to remember, I'm in IL. My favorite song is definitely Have Faith In Me.
Have faith in me
Cause there are things that I've seen I don't believe
So cling to what you know and never let go
You should know things aren't always what they seem
I said I'd never let you go, and I never did
I said I'd never let you fall and I always meant it
If you didn't have this chance then I never did
You'll always find me right there, again
I'm going crazy
Cause there are things in the streets I don't believe
So we'll pretend it's alright (pretend it's alright)
and stay in for the night
Oh what a world
I'll keep you safe here with me (with me)
I said I'd never let you go, and I never did
I said I'd never let you fall and I always meant it
If you didn't have this chance then I never did
You'll always find me right there, again
I said I'd never let you go, and I never did
I said I'd never let you fall and I always meant it
If you didn't have this chance then I never did
You'll always find me right there, again
They've got me on the outside, looking in
But I can't see at all
With the weight of the world on my shoulders,
They just wanna see me fall
They've got me on the outside, looking in
But I can't see at all
With the weight of the world on my shoulders,
They just wanna see me fall
Have faith in me
I said I'd never let you go, and I never did
I said I'd never let you fall and I always meant it
If you didn't have this chance then I never did
You'll always find me right there, again
I said I'd never let you go, and I never did (Go, Did)
I said I'd never let you fall and I always meant it (Fall, Meant It)
If you didn't have this chance then I never did
You'll always find me right there, again
I said I'd never let you go, and I never did
I said I'd never let you go, and I never did
I said I'd never let you go, and I never did
I said I'd never let you go, and I never did
Cause there are things that I've seen I don't believe
So cling to what you know and never let go
You should know things aren't always what they seem
I said I'd never let you go, and I never did
I said I'd never let you fall and I always meant it
If you didn't have this chance then I never did
You'll always find me right there, again
I'm going crazy
Cause there are things in the streets I don't believe
So we'll pretend it's alright (pretend it's alright)
and stay in for the night
Oh what a world
I'll keep you safe here with me (with me)
I said I'd never let you go, and I never did
I said I'd never let you fall and I always meant it
If you didn't have this chance then I never did
You'll always find me right there, again
I said I'd never let you go, and I never did
I said I'd never let you fall and I always meant it
If you didn't have this chance then I never did
You'll always find me right there, again
They've got me on the outside, looking in
But I can't see at all
With the weight of the world on my shoulders,
They just wanna see me fall
They've got me on the outside, looking in
But I can't see at all
With the weight of the world on my shoulders,
They just wanna see me fall
Have faith in me
I said I'd never let you go, and I never did
I said I'd never let you fall and I always meant it
If you didn't have this chance then I never did
You'll always find me right there, again
I said I'd never let you go, and I never did (Go, Did)
I said I'd never let you fall and I always meant it (Fall, Meant It)
If you didn't have this chance then I never did
You'll always find me right there, again
I said I'd never let you go, and I never did
I said I'd never let you go, and I never did
I said I'd never let you go, and I never did
I said I'd never let you go, and I never did
Tuesday, July 28, 2009
Monday, July 27, 2009
1991 Baby
You're a 90s kid if...
You remember watching:
-Kenan and Kel (Oh my god! Orange Soda! I was addicted to that shit for years because of this show!)
-Doug (Hehe! It was so funny.)
-Ren & Stimpy (Didn't really like it. Not my style of humor.)
-Pinky and the Brain (What are we going to do tonight Brain? - The same thing we do every night Pinky...try and take over the world! ---Wicked show!---)
-AAAAAAAH Real Monsters! (So wicked awesome!)
-Rockos Modern Life (Rockos best friend was the weirdest and most awesomeest dude ever!)
-Animaniacs (Never watched.)
-Gargoyles (Skipped this too.)
-Tom and Jerry [when they didnt talk] (Funny but quiet...)
-Hey Arnold (Oh god, that one chick in the pink was a bitch, but I loved her!)
-Out of the Box (This was a great show and gave me a lot of ideas.)
-Bear in the Big Blue House (Hehe...Bear...Moon...)
Youve ever ended a sentence with the word PSYCHE! (Never...PSYCHE!)
You just cant resist finishing this . . . In west Philadelphia born and raised... (On a playground where he spent most of his days.....)
You remember:
-Step by Step (Not...)
-Family Matters (My...)
-Dinosaurs (Style.......)
-Boy Meets World (Everything I learned in life, I learned from Mr. Feeny!)
You remember when it was actually worth getting up early on a Saturday to watch cartoons. (Yes, I really do...Oh the wonderful days...)
When everything was settled by:
-rock paper scissors or (Rock beats all bitch!)
-bubble gum bubble gum in a dish or (How many wishes do you wish?)
-miss mary mack (Miss Mary What The Fuckkk)
When kick ball was something you did everyday!! (When I lived in Savanna in the trailer park, all us kids would gather after dinner and play. I loved it. We would also have a kicking contest.)
You used to listen to the radio all day long just to record your FAVORITE song of ALL time on a tape. (I never did this but I did listen to the radio all day.)
You remember when Super Nintendos and Sega Genisis became popular. (Of course I do. And I was promptly addicted.)
You always wanted to send in a tape to Americas Funniest Home Videos . . . but never taped anything funny. (Very true.)
You remember watching:
-The Magic School Bus (I learned so much from this show, like all about science.)
-Wishbone (Hehe awesome show about reading!)
-Reading Rainbow (Didn't really watch it much but knew of it.)
-Ghostwriter on PBS (I LOVE THIS SHOW! I wish I could find re-runs.)
You remember when Yo-Yos were cool. (I sucked with Yo-Yos...Still do.)
And you played with Silly Puddy and Sticky Tac that you stole from the teachers walls. (Mwahahhaha. I had a small collection of Sticky Tac...My teachers never had enough because of kids like me...)
You remember those Wheres Waldo books. (Hide and seek state champion for the win!)
Those awsome buzz lightyear shoes that light up. (I'm...a...GIRL!)
You remember eating Warheads and Splashers Gum (Queen of the Warheads. I loved sour.)
You remember watching:
-The 1st Batman (Skipped it...Well until I was like 16.)
-Aladdin (I wanted to be Princess Jasmine.)
-Ninja Turtles (Did you know they were all named after famous artists?)
-Ghost Busters (Who you gonna call? GHOSTBUSTERS!)
You remember Ring Pops!!! (I remember when this little boy proposed to me with a ring pop. So sweet.)
If you remember when every thing was da BOMB! (Damn dawg, thats da bomb!)
You remember boom boxes vs. cd players (I was team CD Player but boom boxes make me nastalgic.)
You played and/or collected Pogs (Of course I did.)
You had at least one Tamagotchi, GigaPet, or Nano and brought it everywhere u went (I collected Tamagotchis and Giga Pets. They all died eventually.)
You watched the original cartoons of
-Rugrats (Chuckie! I wanted to marry him when I was like 3.)
-Wild Thornberrys (First love of animals.)
-Power Rangers (Fuck you all...I only watched because Brain made me...)
-Rocket Power. (Auto, Reggie, and the gang rocked.)
All your school supplies were Lisa Frank brand (I wasn't into Lisa Frank.)
If you collected those:
-Beanie Babies (A few here and there but nothing huge.)
-Yu Gi Oh and Pokemon cards (Yu Gi Oh cards and Pokemon cards were banned from my school...It seriously got that bad.)
-Coins with the states on them (Hell yeah!)
-Carebears (Don't judge me...I was like 6...)
-Silver dollars, which were cool to have (Ahh...I spent the money before I could save it.)
-Everyone watched the WB (I did. And I loved it.)
If you even know what an original walkman is...(Sure I do. Had one too.)
You know the Macarena by heart (We actually had to learn this in music and gym.)
Talk to the hand. . .enough said. (Talk to it baby!)
You went to McDonalds to play in the play place (BALL PIT!)
.....Before the MySpace frenzy.....
Before the Internet & text messaging ......
Before Sidekicks & iPods .
Before PlayStation3 or X-BOX 360
Before Spongebob .....
Before the Internet & text messaging ......
Before Sidekicks & iPods .
Before PlayStation3 or X-BOX 360
Before Spongebob .....
When light up sneakers were cool and you had spiral spring shoelaces (What can I say, it was easier than tieing them.)
When you rented VHS tapes, not DVDs (Up until 2 years ago, I still did.)
When gas was $1. (Oh those good old days, how I miss thee :'(...)
When we recorded stuff on VCR (Ahh yes, like Hocus Pocus!)
You had slap bracelets! (Bitch those fucking things hurtttttttt!)
You Actually played outside until it was dark! (I miss those days. Sometimes, we would stay out until the moon was in the middle of the sky...)
Way back-Before we realized all this would eventually disappear... (And it's never coming back...)
When I was 3 years old, sitting on my daddy's knee,
he said I could be anything you want to be.
I want to be everything.
One day, I will be.
A teacher, a psychiatrist, a writer,
So many options.
What will YOU choose?
he said I could be anything you want to be.
I want to be everything.
One day, I will be.
A teacher, a psychiatrist, a writer,
So many options.
What will YOU choose?
A Vacation Update
I'm leaving Thursday for my dad's and I am so excited but at the same time I'm nervous as all hell. As most of you know, I didn't really grow up with my dad in my life. He was there but always on the fringe, making appearances when it was only convenient for him. I don't hold this against him because I know it was participially because of my mum. They never could get along.
I have Josie's present! It's so pretty. I'm going to get myself one soon. :) I really hope she likes it. I know that me just being there is a present in and of itself. Sorry the picture isn't really clear. I don't know why it wouldn't really work.
I am so addicted to this game called Latte Land on CafeMom. I'm currently a level 15 and own 2 shops.
I have Josie's present! It's so pretty. I'm going to get myself one soon. :) I really hope she likes it. I know that me just being there is a present in and of itself. Sorry the picture isn't really clear. I don't know why it wouldn't really work.
I am so addicted to this game called Latte Land on CafeMom. I'm currently a level 15 and own 2 shops.
Saturday, July 25, 2009
Polyvore
I have discovered Polyvore. I've known of it, and seen it before. But now I'm actually a user. I'm going to use it to design the clothing sets for my stories over on FanFiction. First up, Can I Have This Dance? It's going to be awesome! Keep an eye out girls.
Monday, July 20, 2009
Saturday, July 18, 2009
Josie's Birthday Present
After a week of careful consideration, thoughtful planning, and a lot of asking questions, I have FINALLY gotten Josie her 10th birthday present. She is getting an Italian charm bracelet.
The charms I have decided to give her are:
Happy Birthday Charm (It's her birthday so this one was kind of obvious.)
Ice Skating Charm (She's addicted to ice skating and she's really good at it too.)
I <3 My Mommy Charm (Because she loves her mother very much.)
Musical Notes Charm (I know she loves listening to music so I thought this would be perfect.)
Cellphone Charm (Like most people her age, she spends way to much time on the damn thing.)
I Love You Charm (I wanted to give her this charm because I truly do love her. Even if our parents aren't married, she's my little sister.)
Jack & Sally Charm (Okay so I have no idea if she likes or hell has ever even seen The Nightmare Before Christmas but I adore it and I wanted her to have a representation of me with her at all times. :-))
I hope she likes it. I know the biggest present I can give her though is just being there for her on her birthday. I can't wait to give her, Annie, and dad a big hug. A week with them just doesn't seem long enough but I know I'll be able to go back often. As much as I love my mother, I've been with her for 18 years. I need time with my father. The other half of the equation. I need answers and I need time to connect with him.
I've been listening to music by Michael Jackson lately and I have fallen in love with his version of the famous Charlie Chaplin song Smile. Now I listened to his music BEFORE he died and I haven't liked his music more just because he died. No I have simply rediscovered that which I already liked.
Also I played Guitar Hero for the first time last night on the Wii. Oh my giddy gods trousers. This game is fucking hard! And I had it on EASY! 3 fucking buttons. 3 BUTTONS. Green, red, and fucking yellow. I still couldn't keep up half the time. I even had trouble playing Fur Elise on the fucking thing and it's one of the simplest songs in the damn world.
I'll miss everyone while I'm going. Leave me love. I'll reply when I get back. :-) (Don't worry, I don't leave until the 30th after work.)
The charms I have decided to give her are:
Happy Birthday Charm (It's her birthday so this one was kind of obvious.)
Ice Skating Charm (She's addicted to ice skating and she's really good at it too.)
I <3 My Mommy Charm (Because she loves her mother very much.)
Musical Notes Charm (I know she loves listening to music so I thought this would be perfect.)
Cellphone Charm (Like most people her age, she spends way to much time on the damn thing.)
I Love You Charm (I wanted to give her this charm because I truly do love her. Even if our parents aren't married, she's my little sister.)
Jack & Sally Charm (Okay so I have no idea if she likes or hell has ever even seen The Nightmare Before Christmas but I adore it and I wanted her to have a representation of me with her at all times. :-))
I hope she likes it. I know the biggest present I can give her though is just being there for her on her birthday. I can't wait to give her, Annie, and dad a big hug. A week with them just doesn't seem long enough but I know I'll be able to go back often. As much as I love my mother, I've been with her for 18 years. I need time with my father. The other half of the equation. I need answers and I need time to connect with him.
I've been listening to music by Michael Jackson lately and I have fallen in love with his version of the famous Charlie Chaplin song Smile. Now I listened to his music BEFORE he died and I haven't liked his music more just because he died. No I have simply rediscovered that which I already liked.
Also I played Guitar Hero for the first time last night on the Wii. Oh my giddy gods trousers. This game is fucking hard! And I had it on EASY! 3 fucking buttons. 3 BUTTONS. Green, red, and fucking yellow. I still couldn't keep up half the time. I even had trouble playing Fur Elise on the fucking thing and it's one of the simplest songs in the damn world.
I'll miss everyone while I'm going. Leave me love. I'll reply when I get back. :-) (Don't worry, I don't leave until the 30th after work.)
Friday, July 17, 2009
The Nightmare Before Christmas
Tonight I am watching The Nightmare Before Christmas as I babysit. I must say, this movie is a masterpiece. Espeically for it's time. I watched this for the first time when I was around 2, when it came out. It has always been one of my favorite movies. I have a hat with Jack on it and I want to get one with Sally on it.
This movie brings out the kid in all of us. And the love story between Jack and Sally touches me.
Attacked by Christmas toys? That's strange, that's the second toy complaint we've had.
I am the shadow on the moon at night / Filling your dreams to the brim with fright.
Oh, the sound of rolling dice to me is music in the air, / 'cause I'm a gambling Boogie Man, although I don't play fair. / It's much more fun, I must confess, with lives on the line. / Not mine, of course, but yours, old boy, / now, that'll be just fine.
BUNNY!
Just because I cannot see it, doesn't mean I can't believe it!
What's this? What's this? There's color everywhere! What's this? There's white things in the air! What's this? I can't believe my eyes, I must be dreaming; wake up, Jack, this isn't fair! What's this?
Won't they be impressed, I am a ge-ni-ous! See how I transform this old rat inTO a most deLIGHTful hat!
On a side note: I really need to get a laptop and wireless internet at home. This shit is the bomb. I love sitting here watching the movie while on the computer and for once I'm actually comfortable.
This movie brings out the kid in all of us. And the love story between Jack and Sally touches me.
Some of my favorite quotes are:
Attacked by Christmas toys? That's strange, that's the second toy complaint we've had.
I am the shadow on the moon at night / Filling your dreams to the brim with fright.
Oh, the sound of rolling dice to me is music in the air, / 'cause I'm a gambling Boogie Man, although I don't play fair. / It's much more fun, I must confess, with lives on the line. / Not mine, of course, but yours, old boy, / now, that'll be just fine.
BUNNY!
Just because I cannot see it, doesn't mean I can't believe it!
What's this? What's this? There's color everywhere! What's this? There's white things in the air! What's this? I can't believe my eyes, I must be dreaming; wake up, Jack, this isn't fair! What's this?
Won't they be impressed, I am a ge-ni-ous! See how I transform this old rat inTO a most deLIGHTful hat!
On a side note: I really need to get a laptop and wireless internet at home. This shit is the bomb. I love sitting here watching the movie while on the computer and for once I'm actually comfortable.
Vacation
I'm going away for a week. On July 30th at 6 p.m. I will be boarding a bus in Freeport, IL and going to Chicago, IL for an hour and a half before transferring on another bus to go to Milwaukee where my father and Annie will be waiting to pick me up at around like midnight. I'll be spending a week there before doing the whole thing in reverse.
I'll admit I'm scared/nervous/excited/worried/ect... It's going to be a long week but I think it's going to be worth it. I'll keep y'all updated as time goes on and the date gets closer.
I'll admit I'm scared/nervous/excited/worried/ect... It's going to be a long week but I think it's going to be worth it. I'll keep y'all updated as time goes on and the date gets closer.
It is not strange to be nervous about meeting the one who gave you life.
It is only natural to fear you will not be accepted.
It is only natural to fear you will not be accepted.
Thursday, July 16, 2009
Harry Potter And The Half Blood Prince
Warning, Spoiler Alert
Last night I went to see the new Harry Potter film, Harry Potter And The Half-Blood Prince. Or HP & HBP as it is easier to say. I was very excited to finally see this movie. As I'm sure we all remember it was originally slated to come out around the same time as Twilight but due to some reason or other it got pushed back to yesterday. I know that anticipation is great for the movie but seriously, I hated the wait.
Now on to the movie. This film was action packed from minute one. They started off with the Death Eaters destroying this bridge. It was...SPECTACULAR! Then of course we jumped right into the thick of things.
Some of my favorite moment's from the movie had to be...
1) When Dumbldore and Harry appiriated. Wow. Then after the walked a few feet Dumbldore said, "I'm sure your wondering why your here Harry." and Harry responded, "After 6 years I just kind of go with it."
2) Ginny and Harry's kiss! OH MY GOD! So sweet. So innocent. SO AWESOME.
3) When Ron ate the chocolates filled with a very powerful love potion. And started hitting on Prof. Slughorn.
4) When Ron said, "I tell you Harry, these girls are gonna kill me."
5) When Ron said Hermiones name in the hospital wing.
6) Every single time Hermione hit one of the boys.
7) Malfoy crying. Even I was moved.
8) Ron trying out for Keeper.
9) When McCormac puked on Snape's shoes! Score!
10) When Snape killed Dumbldore. This moment is very important to the entire series. It is necessery and Dumbldore knew it. That's why he asked Snape to kill him.
Over all I defiantly give this movie a 9/10. Only thing that could have made it any better would have been having Dumbldore's funeral included in the movie but with the movie already being SO long, I can understand why they felt this needed to go. For time constrant reasons. But still, defiantly worth the watch. The graphics were great, the script witty and excellent, and the cast really put their hearts into this movie. Go see it.
Now on to the movie. This film was action packed from minute one. They started off with the Death Eaters destroying this bridge. It was...SPECTACULAR! Then of course we jumped right into the thick of things.
Some of my favorite moment's from the movie had to be...
1) When Dumbldore and Harry appiriated. Wow. Then after the walked a few feet Dumbldore said, "I'm sure your wondering why your here Harry." and Harry responded, "After 6 years I just kind of go with it."
2) Ginny and Harry's kiss! OH MY GOD! So sweet. So innocent. SO AWESOME.
3) When Ron ate the chocolates filled with a very powerful love potion. And started hitting on Prof. Slughorn.
4) When Ron said, "I tell you Harry, these girls are gonna kill me."
5) When Ron said Hermiones name in the hospital wing.
6) Every single time Hermione hit one of the boys.
7) Malfoy crying. Even I was moved.
8) Ron trying out for Keeper.
9) When McCormac puked on Snape's shoes! Score!
10) When Snape killed Dumbldore. This moment is very important to the entire series. It is necessery and Dumbldore knew it. That's why he asked Snape to kill him.
Over all I defiantly give this movie a 9/10. Only thing that could have made it any better would have been having Dumbldore's funeral included in the movie but with the movie already being SO long, I can understand why they felt this needed to go. For time constrant reasons. But still, defiantly worth the watch. The graphics were great, the script witty and excellent, and the cast really put their hearts into this movie. Go see it.
Monday, July 13, 2009
Stupid Survey Because I'm Bored
Basic Questions!!
First name- AshleyMiddle name- Nicole
Do you like your name?- Not really
Are you named after anyone?- My initials spell my mums favorite cousins name.
Who?- Ang(ie)
Birthday- March 5, 1991
Current age- 18
Where you were born- Freeport Memorial Hospital, Freeport, IL
Where you currently live- Stockton, IL
Your looks and body!!
Face shape- RoundedSkin tone- Pale
Do you have acne?- Every once in a while but nothing bad
Hair color- Redish brown dyed.
Hair texture- Thick but soft
Hair style- Wavy
Hair length- A little shorter than shoulder
Eye color- Blue
Eye shape- Rounded almond
How big are your eyes?- 2 inches across, 1 inch tall
Do you wear contacts or glasses?- Only to read on a rare occasion
How about braces? Have/had them?- Nope, never
Do you have straight teeth?- Yes, I suppose
Are they really white?- No...
Do you have high cheekbones?- Not really
Long eyelashes?- So-so
Do you wear makeup?- Rarely...
What kind of makeup do you use?- Lipstick, blush, foundation, eyeshadow, and eyeliner.
What brand of makeup do you use?- Whatever I have around...
What shoe size do you wear?- 9 1/2 - 10
Ring size?- Hmm...9 I think
Belt size?- Don't know
Pant size?- Won't tell
Shirt size?- Fuck off.
How tall are you?- 5'8"
Happy with it?- Yes I am.
Your weight- Go to hell.
Happy with it?- Defiantly not.
Do you exercise a lot?- Does running around after a 6 & 7 year old count???
What kind of exercising do you do?- Chasing after the kids I sit.
Are you 'toned'?- Hell no...
Muscular?- Only my legs...
Overweight?- Yes.
Are you in shape?- No.
You and School!!
What school do you attend?- Mount Carroll, Savanna, Lanark, Stockton, Home schooled...What grade are you in?- Finished
What classes are you taking?- None
What's your favorite one?- It was lit.
Least favorite?- Gym.
Favorite teacher- Oh defiantly Mr. Pfiffer.
What class do they teach?- Freshman English/Lit
Least favorite teacher- Mrs. Korth / Mr. Jones
What class do they teach?- Gym / Speech-Lit
How many schools have you ever attended?- 4 or 5
Are you in any clubs?- Nah.
What ones?- N/A
What about school plays?- I wish.
Musicals?- Can't sing.
Do you go to a lot of school dances?- Not a single one.
Are you full of school spirit?!?!?- Haha fuck school.
Ever got detention?- Never
Suspended?- Yes once.
Expelled?- Haha nope.
You and Sports!!
Your favorite sport- College FootballLeast favorite sport- Basketball
Favorite sports team- Georgia Bulldogs
Least favorite sports team- Any basketball team?
Do you play any sports?- Not on a team
What ones?- Baseball, soccer, ect...
Are you good?- As the goalie in soccer I am.
What sport would you like to be better at?- Baseball
Is cheerleading a sport?- Depends...Is chess?
What's your favorite sport to watch?- College football
To play?- Baseball
You and Music!!
Your favorite type of music- Country or currentFavorite band(s)- Jimmy Buffett, Reba, Taylor Swift, ect...
Favorite song(s)- Boy Meets Girl, He Could Be The One, Her Diamonds, ect...
Least favorite type of music- Heavy Metal
Least favorite band(s)- Alice In Chains, Nine Inch Nails, ect...
Least favorite song(s)- IDK...
Did/do you take any classes relating to music in highschool/college?- Yes.
Do you play an instrument?- I can play the scales on the flute, picoloe, and sax.
What one(s)?- See above.
Do you like dancing to music? Yes.
Do you like singing? I love to even though I can't.
You and Your Friends!!
Best- TessNicest- Abby
Cutest- David
Shyest- Paul
Friendliest- Darek
Dorkiest- Matthew
Prettiest- Cha Cha
Ugliest- No comment
Sweetest- Annabell
Most reliable- My mummy...
Least reliable- Tess
Best singer- Brian S.
Best dancer-Em
Best at an instrument- Tasha
Best artist- Bethy
Biggest appetite- Joe!
You and Love!!
Do you have a crush/boyfriend/girlfriend?- I'm not sure...Their name- Darek
Do they know (if it's a crush)?- Yes
Do you like anyone?- Umm yeah
Are you a virgin?- Haha no
Do you want to remain a virgin until marriage?- I'm not a virgin
How far have you gone?- God it's the same question phrased 3 different ways.
Are you in love? Yes I am.
Have you ever been in love?- Yes.
Who was your first.. crush?- Jacob
Date?- Matthew
Person you held hands with?- my mother?? I don't know. Idiots.
Kiss?- Alfred
Person you made out with?- Matthew
Person you had sex with?- Ray
Who was your last.. crush?- Darek
Date?- Tony
Kiss?- Tony
Person you made out with?- Tony
Person you had sex with?- Tony
You and the future!!
Do you want to get married?- Yes.By what age?- 25
Do you want to have children?- Very much so.
How many?- 4
By what age?- 30
Their names?- Alice, Emma, Lucas, and Liam
What is your future career going to be?- Author/Psychiatrist.
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